Count down begins

So after mths of preparation, THE DAY is almost here.

I am on leave till after my wedding. Need to catch up on sleep and do all the beauty routines during the next one week. I pray all goes fine and e day is a success. (nw i'm making it sound like its an event i'm organising. perils of the job. haha)

human beings can be so unpredictable. sometimes e person you thought you knew well all ur life, suddenly seems like someone u can't understand at all. someone u don't understand at all.

i am stressed. upset. disappointed. most of all hurt. at last evening's happenings.
but alas, what can i say? wat right do i have to say anything anymore.

sealed with a tear.

despite all of it, i am greatful for the support i have from people arnd me who love me.

sometimes e most impt thing to do is express ur love. not keep it bottled within u. is ego the most impt thing after all? i wonder.

i know for sure, i would nt react or do things this way at least not at this time.

its a confused entry i know.
i am confused.

not the right time to be i know.
but its not just me that needs to know.

back to work. will update the next time in nov.
inshah allah with alot of pics. =)

Next Phase

I feel like time is flying super fast. Maybe its cos too many things are happening at one time. lots to update, but not quite in the mood too. so will try and keep this post short.

One more thing can be striked off my wishes list - Degree with Distinction.

Alhamdulila! I had my convocation last Thurs. All went smooth, just that it saddened me that the two people who would have shed tears of joy at my graduation were no longer around to witness it. The two who were proud of their daughter and believed in her from Primary School, the ones who egged her on and knew how important education was and strived to give it to her.

Mummy and Daddy - I miss you alot.

I wish you were around now. This is probably the most important year in my life. My convocation and my wedding. Yet, the two who would love to see it the most aren't around to.

At least I have the satisfaction that they are with HIM in a place better than here. But i pray that you are watching and blessing me.

The wedding preparations are going smooth. Alhamdulila. 60% settled i think. Inshah allah hope all goes smooth. Its the invitations that are the biggest task at hand now. heh.

Fasting month is here. Its 54 days more to the wedding. Once the blessed month of Ramadan comes to an end, it will just be wedding preps full blast.

Its a busy period at work too. Many events coming up, trying to enjoy the process as much. Handling work and marriage preps is really no mean feat. I just pray HE gives me the strength and resilience to.

Feelings

Its been a long time since i blogged. alot has happened since, mostly good and a little bad.

mostly, nazee is

HAPPY cos she loves her job.
GLAD that anna's engagement went well.
ELATED that she's prob getting her own place soon.

(Inshah Allah)
OVER THE MOON for finding THE ONE

(Alhamdulila)

NERVOUS about the upcoming wedding
TENSED about the finances
WORRIED about the current home issues

EXCITED about the project on hand
OVERJOYED about the Degree with Distinction
RELIEVED that anna found a new job

PRAYING hard that he finds a good one too. inshah allah.

and

she's pissed that things are always turning sour with that one person who does matter to her, but whom she just cant understand or live up to her expectations. Nazee knows shes wrong to just avoid the problem, but how many times does she have to try to make things better.

after all, she's human too.