Aussieland...

Its the intensive module period in school nw, which means i rush for school after work many times a wk and have to finish a presentation within 2 wks of starting class and learning wat popular culture is all abt. oh, did i mention the test on sat on everything that we learnt ovr e past 2 wks? and tat it makes up 25% of the course grade? RMIT is amazing.

recently have been contemplating going to aussie to do my honors with a fren of mine whos going to pursue journalism there. though i know there will be several considerations attached to it. money being e first but its also e one which is easy to solve (banks r willing to give loans to poor working adults like me who want to pursue their further studies at exhorbitant interest rates. they r a bunch of nice organisations i must add, cos they charge you merely 10% interest on ur monthly loan repayment is u are late by 3 days)

but yes, the money issue (atleast to do e degree) wont be that much of a problem but there are so many other things i have to consider. the first being, repayment of the loan once i'm back. and of cos e social stigma attached to asians esp tudong wearing muslims in aussie. recently a client was telling me that her muslim fren had beer cans thrown on her while walking down the streets when there was issues of terrorism in Aussie. sad i must say. and of cos, convincing e conservative family of mine. the SUPER conservative. sometimes i wish i could just pick up my bags one day and leave saying i'm moving out or migrating - alone. i'd be met with instant no nos, gasps.

i know for one tingm bee (much as he would nt wanna be away from me from such a long period of time) will be supportive if i decide to go, cos he respects me and the decisions i make. even my bro MIGHT agree, but then chachi.. the dialogue will follow 'Will you go if ur mum was arnd?'.

Okay, of cos i wont go if mum was arnd. but hey, alot of tings will be diff is mum was arnd.

and the final decision i made was - i'm staying put here. not cos i'm afraid of breaking out from the strong holds, but cos i decided i had to get my priorities right. If i were to have an honors, i'd prob earn a couple of hundred more but i would be using that couple and more prob to pay off e loan. and that means i wont be able to save in a long time. its gonna take me 3 yrs to pay off my current loan. add 5 yrs to that? I'll prob be 30 b4 i can settle down. but e reason y i wanted to do it was for the experience of living independently in a foreign land and surviving, standing on ur own feet, being resourceful etc. maybe then i'll appreciate my life here better? i dunno.

but yes, i'm nt going. atleast nt now. unless some miracle happens or i have a windfall. oh well, i can always dream.