confused.

Current mood: confused
Reason: unsure of what actions to take

I am faced with a dilema since i had the convo with sahib bro about e proposed engagement.
he enlightened me on alot of things. and i am in a situation where i know what's right, but i do not dare do it. for many reasons.

1. am i making a rash decision
2. how will e elders react to it, esp when i will have to go against some of their wishes
3. uncertainity - what will e future hold?
4. e ramifications that i will have to face regardless of which decision i make

1 year, seems like forever to me.
but 40-50 years is alot more.

a proper decision has to be made. nt without sacrifices.
just pray HE shows me e best way out.

maybe i should pray istihaara - like i suggested to zeenath akka when she had uncertainity.