Thursday, October 11, 2007

Dread.

Raya is coming.. A matter of just 2 more days BUT i'm not looking forward to it. In fact, i do not want it to come. Feeling of dread seeping in. Raya will never be the same again.

It used to be 4 of them, a simple happy family.
Not perfect but blessed.
She was a pampered princess
who used to LURRRVVEEE Raya..
Cos it meant lots and lots of new clothes, good food and ang powsss..
She counted down to it endlessly,
Though she didnt quite enjoy the fasting part.
She was a kid, a blessed one.

Then it became 3 of them at the table and 1 on bed.
It still was not too bad.
Atleast there was love and happiness.
Mutual support and trust existed.
It was family - Not perfect, but nevertheless still blessed.

Then it was just 3.
There was a feeling of loss at the table on Raya.
But then again, she was still around
Their pillar of strength, of love.
There was still good food, and some anticipation of the day.
The bond, the family bond
It held them tight through the good times and bad.
With the pillar, it seemed like just a matter of time before it all went back to norm.
She was blessed in life - with the best mum.

But one day, the pillar gave way
or should i say it was forced to go away (not like she chose to)

Now its just 2
oh wait, its going to be 6 at the table
but the bond that binds?
Does it still exist?
the bond that they call family
and the warmth that comes with it
Does it exist?

heck it doesn't even feel like family anymore.

BUT

she's still blessed.
with strength
and a strong personality
and faith
and belief
the belief that HE is going to see her through all of this.

after all,

if HE takes her to it,
HE will take her through it.

Right?

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

InshaAllah, May Allah(swt) and His Beloved Prophet(saw) always Bless you and your brother. Its not in our hands to decide our lives to be.. Fated, zeera!
Do your Best and He will take care of the Rest.
Salam Aidilfitri...
Will see you in Geylang tmr!?

Zeera said...

Inshah Allah..
Sorry, Who is this?

Anonymous said...

Whenever, I come across times that are tough, I always remember this.

"On no soul does Allah place a burden greater than it can bear" (Surah Al Baqarah, Verse 286)

Somehow, it keeps me going. Cheer up. Tomorrow may never come, so enjoy every day to the fullest. As each day is filled with HIS blessings. If only, we'll open our eyes and hearts and see.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes it is GooD not to know everyone!
I am your Well-Wisher...

Zeera said...

Whoever u may be.. thanks for the prayers and well-wishes. =)
Salam Eid to you too.

Zeera said...

Yashila - it is so true.

"On no soul does Allah place a burden greater than it can bear".

I believe HE has given me the strength to bear it and grow with the experience. Inshah Allah. =)