the Bintan trip came and went.. too fast i must say..
had tonnes of fun, overall it was a blast! didnt wanna come back to reality after that. *sobss*
the waves were awesome, the pools were fantastic and the jacuzzi super relaxing.. jus didnt have time for the sauna.. the food at the kelong was good.. only disaster was our attempt at cooking.. shima and i made quite a mess of the fried rice.. overall the trip was great. thats one ting to strike off my wish list.. =D
2008 is cmg with lots of stuff to look forward to..
holiday season and i'm totally in holiday mode..
the interview went well on thurs, but i decided its nt e job i want cos its to do with Sci-fi and fantsay, something i'm nt too interested in. even if its Sony pictures, its nt use doing someting i have no interest in. i think.
rashi's 21st is cmg soon.. my 1 yr anni.. haji and christmas hols, new yr's eve and it 2007 will be ovr.. cant wait.. =)
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Time to look forward..
Woohoo Contemporary Pop Culture is a thing of the past now!.
The research paper is done and all headaches ovr for now! phewww. i'm such a last min person! but somehow i always scrape thru. alhamdulila
Now all i got to do is sit back and wait for 3 days to pass and i'll be in Bintan! yay.. tats one ting to strike off my wishlist. things are better at home, after a long while. thank god for tat. with raya haji cmg soon, if things were as before, then i wonder how it might have been. have some shopping to complete before the trip..
Had a talk with bee's mum ovr the weekend when I was over to do my assignment. The engagament should take place inshah allah begining on 08 - prob Jan. Starting to feel anxious abt it. pray it all goes fine.
Been sending out some applications for positions i'm interested in. Must admit I'm quite selective cos after all, I'm looking for something stable that I'd want to do for atleast a couple more years.. hope something good comes up soon.
The research paper is done and all headaches ovr for now! phewww. i'm such a last min person! but somehow i always scrape thru. alhamdulila
Now all i got to do is sit back and wait for 3 days to pass and i'll be in Bintan! yay.. tats one ting to strike off my wishlist. things are better at home, after a long while. thank god for tat. with raya haji cmg soon, if things were as before, then i wonder how it might have been. have some shopping to complete before the trip..
Had a talk with bee's mum ovr the weekend when I was over to do my assignment. The engagament should take place inshah allah begining on 08 - prob Jan. Starting to feel anxious abt it. pray it all goes fine.
Been sending out some applications for positions i'm interested in. Must admit I'm quite selective cos after all, I'm looking for something stable that I'd want to do for atleast a couple more years.. hope something good comes up soon.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
clueless
my research paper is due on mon and i have nt decided what i'm going to do yet..
transnationalism and gender in the movie Bend it like bekham
oientalism evident in the iconic Singapore Girl
or the representation of gender and identity in a hindi movie like kabi alvida
i am so lost. peroid.
it does not help one bit tat i have so many choices.
true, i'd rather do a hindi movie but tat would be so typical right? should take up more of a challenge.
does not help one bit that my laptop is not working and i have problems connecting to the broadband internet with rashi's laptop. have to get all these resolved out before i start on my assignment today..
arggghhh.
bee's taking his tough F7 paper today. he's nervous and so am i for him. inshah allah i hope he aces it. for his and my good. heh.
transnationalism and gender in the movie Bend it like bekham
oientalism evident in the iconic Singapore Girl
or the representation of gender and identity in a hindi movie like kabi alvida
i am so lost. peroid.
it does not help one bit tat i have so many choices.
true, i'd rather do a hindi movie but tat would be so typical right? should take up more of a challenge.
does not help one bit that my laptop is not working and i have problems connecting to the broadband internet with rashi's laptop. have to get all these resolved out before i start on my assignment today..
arggghhh.
bee's taking his tough F7 paper today. he's nervous and so am i for him. inshah allah i hope he aces it. for his and my good. heh.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Contentment..
CONTENTMENT
Have you ever, at any one time, had the feeling that life is bad, real bad, and you wish you were in another situation?
You find life make things difficult for you, work sucks, life sucks, everything seems to go wrong...
Read the following story... it may change your views about life:
After a conversation with one of my friends, he told me despite taking 2 jobs, he brings back barely above 1K per month, he is happy as he is.
I wonder how he can be as happy as he is considering he has to skimp his life with the low pay to support a pair of old parents, in-laws, a wife, 2 daughters and the many bills of a household.He explained that it was through one incident that he saw in India ... that happened a few years ago when he was really feeling low and touring India after a major setback.
He said that right in front of his very eyes he saw an Indian mother chop off her child's right hand with a chopper. The helplessness in the mother's eyes, the scream of pain from the innocent 4-year-old child haunted him until today.
You may ask why did the mother do so; had the child been naughty,had the child's hand been infected?? No, it was donefor two simple words- - -TO BEG!
The desperate mother deliberately caused the child to be handicapped so that the child could go out to the streets to beg. Taken aback by the scene, he dropped a piece of bread he was eating half-way. And almost instantly, a flock 5 or 6children swamped towards this small piece of bread which wasc overed with sand, robbing bits from one another.
The natural reaction of hunger. Stricken by the happenings, he instructed his guide to drive him to the nearest bakery. He arrived at two bakeries andbought every single loaf of bread he found in the bakeries. The owner was dumbfounded but willingly sold everything. He spent less than $100 to obtain about 400 loaves of bread (this isless than $0.25 per loaf) and spent another $100 to get daily necessities.
Off he went in the truck full of bread into the streets. As he distributed the bread and necessities to the children (mostly handicapped) and a few adults, he received cheers and bows from these unfortunate. For the first time in his life he wondered how people can give up their dignity for a loaf of bread which cost less than $0.25.
He began to tell himself how fortunate he is. How fortunate he is to be able to have a complete body, have a job, have a family, have the chance to complain what food is nice and what isn't nice, have the chance to be clothed, have the many things that these people in front of him are deprived of...
Now I begin to think and feel it, too!
Was my life really that bad? Perhaps... no, I should not feel bad at all...
What about you? Maybe the next time you think you are, think about the child who lost one hand to beg on the streets.
"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have."
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often timeswe look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best ofeverything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Have you ever, at any one time, had the feeling that life is bad, real bad, and you wish you were in another situation?
You find life make things difficult for you, work sucks, life sucks, everything seems to go wrong...
Read the following story... it may change your views about life:
After a conversation with one of my friends, he told me despite taking 2 jobs, he brings back barely above 1K per month, he is happy as he is.
I wonder how he can be as happy as he is considering he has to skimp his life with the low pay to support a pair of old parents, in-laws, a wife, 2 daughters and the many bills of a household.He explained that it was through one incident that he saw in India ... that happened a few years ago when he was really feeling low and touring India after a major setback.
He said that right in front of his very eyes he saw an Indian mother chop off her child's right hand with a chopper. The helplessness in the mother's eyes, the scream of pain from the innocent 4-year-old child haunted him until today.
You may ask why did the mother do so; had the child been naughty,had the child's hand been infected?? No, it was donefor two simple words- - -TO BEG!
The desperate mother deliberately caused the child to be handicapped so that the child could go out to the streets to beg. Taken aback by the scene, he dropped a piece of bread he was eating half-way. And almost instantly, a flock 5 or 6children swamped towards this small piece of bread which wasc overed with sand, robbing bits from one another.
The natural reaction of hunger. Stricken by the happenings, he instructed his guide to drive him to the nearest bakery. He arrived at two bakeries andbought every single loaf of bread he found in the bakeries. The owner was dumbfounded but willingly sold everything. He spent less than $100 to obtain about 400 loaves of bread (this isless than $0.25 per loaf) and spent another $100 to get daily necessities.
Off he went in the truck full of bread into the streets. As he distributed the bread and necessities to the children (mostly handicapped) and a few adults, he received cheers and bows from these unfortunate. For the first time in his life he wondered how people can give up their dignity for a loaf of bread which cost less than $0.25.
He began to tell himself how fortunate he is. How fortunate he is to be able to have a complete body, have a job, have a family, have the chance to complain what food is nice and what isn't nice, have the chance to be clothed, have the many things that these people in front of him are deprived of...
Now I begin to think and feel it, too!
Was my life really that bad? Perhaps... no, I should not feel bad at all...
What about you? Maybe the next time you think you are, think about the child who lost one hand to beg on the streets.
"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have."
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often timeswe look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best ofeverything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
the day after
its over, okie almost over. just one more lesson on mon and a research paper on a popular culture text will wil constitute 50% of the overall marks the test and presentation which makes up the remaining 50% went well alhamdulila. =)
went shopping for fawaz's bday gift after school, met rashi coincidentally and went ovr to akka's place. overall, the bday party went fine minus the stark dissapointment due tto the absense of some 'impt' family members who probably intentionally chose not to come. i just dun understand these people sometimes, the unhappiness is with someone else and u show it on someone who gives u her best? haiz. oh well, the impt ting to ponder is, would u all do tat if our mums were arnd? hmmph i guess the absense of our mums is more felt at such times and the deep feeling of missing them surfaces.
we'll have to deal with it. independently. period. may HE guide us thru to deal with all these with extreme patience and strength. ameen.
stayed over at akka's place. i always love the home stays at her place. makes me relaxed and gives me a true sense of escape.i know it sounds exaggerated but somehow its true. prob cos i have little to worry about there, and the setting of her home is so cosy, makes me feel like i have taken a mini holiday.
things at home are not too good now. i seem to worry more nw than when mum was arnd. not a good thing.
nywayz, am looking forward to the Bintan trip. truly need a break. countin down to december and then jan - the completion of school. inshah allah hope all goes well till then.
went shopping for fawaz's bday gift after school, met rashi coincidentally and went ovr to akka's place. overall, the bday party went fine minus the stark dissapointment due tto the absense of some 'impt' family members who probably intentionally chose not to come. i just dun understand these people sometimes, the unhappiness is with someone else and u show it on someone who gives u her best? haiz. oh well, the impt ting to ponder is, would u all do tat if our mums were arnd? hmmph i guess the absense of our mums is more felt at such times and the deep feeling of missing them surfaces.
we'll have to deal with it. independently. period. may HE guide us thru to deal with all these with extreme patience and strength. ameen.
stayed over at akka's place. i always love the home stays at her place. makes me relaxed and gives me a true sense of escape.i know it sounds exaggerated but somehow its true. prob cos i have little to worry about there, and the setting of her home is so cosy, makes me feel like i have taken a mini holiday.
things at home are not too good now. i seem to worry more nw than when mum was arnd. not a good thing.
nywayz, am looking forward to the Bintan trip. truly need a break. countin down to december and then jan - the completion of school. inshah allah hope all goes well till then.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
reviews..
Recently caught 2 movies - Alagiya tamilmagan and Stardust
People who know me well enough know that i've liked Vijay since I was in sec 1 - thats likes 8 years already so when ATM came out, of cos I had to watch. So despite the tight schedule of school and work, I went down last sunday to watch it.
I must say its one of his better movies (in my opinion) in recent times as it was slightly different from his usual hero trying to save mother/sister/heroine etc from e bad fellas action movies. I had grown accustomed to movies such as gilli, sivakasi, thirupachi, pokkiri that i didnt really place very high expectations on this movie. I just went to watch as a fan and i was pleased when i walked out of the cinema
(Warning: Spoilers ahead)
So it was not the typical fall-in-love and parents oppose kinda film. Vj meet Shreya and they fall in love and all goes smooth. both families r ok, e couple does not have fights or quarrels etc etc. until he starts getting illusions that come true (ok this part was nt all so believable) and he sees himself stab shreya. Fearing that he may endanger her life, he leaves for Bombay, meets with an accident while trying to chase after his look-alike and disappears from the movie for a while.
And then theres the entrance of the antagonist (played by VJ as well) who's a rebel with expensive tastes and a weakness for women. Shreya thinks its her lover and brings her home to stay with her family (her father, played by Asish vithyarthi, is one of the richest men in India) and he settles down comfortably into a life of luxury and a beautiful woman with the help of Vj's diary. The remaining part of the story is of cos abt the original lover coming back and trying to get them to realise that hes the 'original'. Quite interesting how the story takes off from there and almost comes to an end with Vj stabbing Shreya accidentally while trying to save her from being raped by the antagonist.
what i disliked abt the movie was the way the antagonist reformed. after numerous fights, arguments and all, all it took was a lecture abt chastity and sex? bleah.
overall it was a gd movie. vj and shreya make a beatutiful couple. i jus dun understand y shreya has to be swaying her hips throughout the song sequences even when e music did nt call for it. the comedy was good, packed quite a few laughs and the songs were captivating with AR rahman's music.
overall i'd give it 3.4/4 stars so go watch it! I heard from ppl that vel was better though. wont know till i catch it. =)
Stardust was one of those movies i just happened to watch cos the timing was right and i must say it was pretty good. a perfect fairy-tale with a real sweet ending. its nt showing much anymore, but if u do get the chance watch it. am sure it will bring a smile to ur faces.
People who know me well enough know that i've liked Vijay since I was in sec 1 - thats likes 8 years already so when ATM came out, of cos I had to watch. So despite the tight schedule of school and work, I went down last sunday to watch it.
I must say its one of his better movies (in my opinion) in recent times as it was slightly different from his usual hero trying to save mother/sister/heroine etc from e bad fellas action movies. I had grown accustomed to movies such as gilli, sivakasi, thirupachi, pokkiri that i didnt really place very high expectations on this movie. I just went to watch as a fan and i was pleased when i walked out of the cinema
(Warning: Spoilers ahead)
So it was not the typical fall-in-love and parents oppose kinda film. Vj meet Shreya and they fall in love and all goes smooth. both families r ok, e couple does not have fights or quarrels etc etc. until he starts getting illusions that come true (ok this part was nt all so believable) and he sees himself stab shreya. Fearing that he may endanger her life, he leaves for Bombay, meets with an accident while trying to chase after his look-alike and disappears from the movie for a while.
And then theres the entrance of the antagonist (played by VJ as well) who's a rebel with expensive tastes and a weakness for women. Shreya thinks its her lover and brings her home to stay with her family (her father, played by Asish vithyarthi, is one of the richest men in India) and he settles down comfortably into a life of luxury and a beautiful woman with the help of Vj's diary. The remaining part of the story is of cos abt the original lover coming back and trying to get them to realise that hes the 'original'. Quite interesting how the story takes off from there and almost comes to an end with Vj stabbing Shreya accidentally while trying to save her from being raped by the antagonist.
what i disliked abt the movie was the way the antagonist reformed. after numerous fights, arguments and all, all it took was a lecture abt chastity and sex? bleah.
overall it was a gd movie. vj and shreya make a beatutiful couple. i jus dun understand y shreya has to be swaying her hips throughout the song sequences even when e music did nt call for it. the comedy was good, packed quite a few laughs and the songs were captivating with AR rahman's music.
overall i'd give it 3.4/4 stars so go watch it! I heard from ppl that vel was better though. wont know till i catch it. =)
Stardust was one of those movies i just happened to watch cos the timing was right and i must say it was pretty good. a perfect fairy-tale with a real sweet ending. its nt showing much anymore, but if u do get the chance watch it. am sure it will bring a smile to ur faces.
Aussieland...
Its the intensive module period in school nw, which means i rush for school after work many times a wk and have to finish a presentation within 2 wks of starting class and learning wat popular culture is all abt. oh, did i mention the test on sat on everything that we learnt ovr e past 2 wks? and tat it makes up 25% of the course grade? RMIT is amazing.
recently have been contemplating going to aussie to do my honors with a fren of mine whos going to pursue journalism there. though i know there will be several considerations attached to it. money being e first but its also e one which is easy to solve (banks r willing to give loans to poor working adults like me who want to pursue their further studies at exhorbitant interest rates. they r a bunch of nice organisations i must add, cos they charge you merely 10% interest on ur monthly loan repayment is u are late by 3 days)
but yes, the money issue (atleast to do e degree) wont be that much of a problem but there are so many other things i have to consider. the first being, repayment of the loan once i'm back. and of cos e social stigma attached to asians esp tudong wearing muslims in aussie. recently a client was telling me that her muslim fren had beer cans thrown on her while walking down the streets when there was issues of terrorism in Aussie. sad i must say. and of cos, convincing e conservative family of mine. the SUPER conservative. sometimes i wish i could just pick up my bags one day and leave saying i'm moving out or migrating - alone. i'd be met with instant no nos, gasps.
i know for one tingm bee (much as he would nt wanna be away from me from such a long period of time) will be supportive if i decide to go, cos he respects me and the decisions i make. even my bro MIGHT agree, but then chachi.. the dialogue will follow 'Will you go if ur mum was arnd?'.
Okay, of cos i wont go if mum was arnd. but hey, alot of tings will be diff is mum was arnd.
and the final decision i made was - i'm staying put here. not cos i'm afraid of breaking out from the strong holds, but cos i decided i had to get my priorities right. If i were to have an honors, i'd prob earn a couple of hundred more but i would be using that couple and more prob to pay off e loan. and that means i wont be able to save in a long time. its gonna take me 3 yrs to pay off my current loan. add 5 yrs to that? I'll prob be 30 b4 i can settle down. but e reason y i wanted to do it was for the experience of living independently in a foreign land and surviving, standing on ur own feet, being resourceful etc. maybe then i'll appreciate my life here better? i dunno.
but yes, i'm nt going. atleast nt now. unless some miracle happens or i have a windfall. oh well, i can always dream.
recently have been contemplating going to aussie to do my honors with a fren of mine whos going to pursue journalism there. though i know there will be several considerations attached to it. money being e first but its also e one which is easy to solve (banks r willing to give loans to poor working adults like me who want to pursue their further studies at exhorbitant interest rates. they r a bunch of nice organisations i must add, cos they charge you merely 10% interest on ur monthly loan repayment is u are late by 3 days)
but yes, the money issue (atleast to do e degree) wont be that much of a problem but there are so many other things i have to consider. the first being, repayment of the loan once i'm back. and of cos e social stigma attached to asians esp tudong wearing muslims in aussie. recently a client was telling me that her muslim fren had beer cans thrown on her while walking down the streets when there was issues of terrorism in Aussie. sad i must say. and of cos, convincing e conservative family of mine. the SUPER conservative. sometimes i wish i could just pick up my bags one day and leave saying i'm moving out or migrating - alone. i'd be met with instant no nos, gasps.
i know for one tingm bee (much as he would nt wanna be away from me from such a long period of time) will be supportive if i decide to go, cos he respects me and the decisions i make. even my bro MIGHT agree, but then chachi.. the dialogue will follow 'Will you go if ur mum was arnd?'.
Okay, of cos i wont go if mum was arnd. but hey, alot of tings will be diff is mum was arnd.
and the final decision i made was - i'm staying put here. not cos i'm afraid of breaking out from the strong holds, but cos i decided i had to get my priorities right. If i were to have an honors, i'd prob earn a couple of hundred more but i would be using that couple and more prob to pay off e loan. and that means i wont be able to save in a long time. its gonna take me 3 yrs to pay off my current loan. add 5 yrs to that? I'll prob be 30 b4 i can settle down. but e reason y i wanted to do it was for the experience of living independently in a foreign land and surviving, standing on ur own feet, being resourceful etc. maybe then i'll appreciate my life here better? i dunno.
but yes, i'm nt going. atleast nt now. unless some miracle happens or i have a windfall. oh well, i can always dream.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
time to update..
Its been a real long time since i updated. y? cos its been a super busy 2 wks.
Workload is up (i'm nt complaining) and school has started. Its the intensive module which means i go to sch on mon, wed, fri after rushing out the demands of clients (who by e way r never satisfied) and on sat from 9-5. And after sch on sat and on sun, what do i have to do? get ready for the grp presentation on the 24th Nov. pheww gonna be a tiring 2 wks. and i am gona miss so much of the fun for fawaz's bday. *haiz*
the A's and O's are ovr so yes nw nas and banu can breathe. am glad for them. inshaha allah they would have done well cos i feel they both deserve it. *pat on the back
the days r going by fast, with the end of this module, i will have jus 1 more to go b4 graduation. i pray very hard that i get e degree with distinction! i tink i deserve it. haha.
The Bintan trip is finalised!! wooohooo. i'll be off on the 14-16, thats one thing off my wishlist. =) Might be going penang b4 that ovr 8-11 for Amirul hisham (baby cousin) naming ceremony. That should be fun, if i can get the time off.
alot of options going thru my head on where i should be headed towards, no clear directions yet. will just take things as they come. so long as at the end, it is all worth it.
my laptop is down with virus, anyone who has the necesary software to rid the prob?
Workload is up (i'm nt complaining) and school has started. Its the intensive module which means i go to sch on mon, wed, fri after rushing out the demands of clients (who by e way r never satisfied) and on sat from 9-5. And after sch on sat and on sun, what do i have to do? get ready for the grp presentation on the 24th Nov. pheww gonna be a tiring 2 wks. and i am gona miss so much of the fun for fawaz's bday. *haiz*
the A's and O's are ovr so yes nw nas and banu can breathe. am glad for them. inshaha allah they would have done well cos i feel they both deserve it. *pat on the back
the days r going by fast, with the end of this module, i will have jus 1 more to go b4 graduation. i pray very hard that i get e degree with distinction! i tink i deserve it. haha.
The Bintan trip is finalised!! wooohooo. i'll be off on the 14-16, thats one thing off my wishlist. =) Might be going penang b4 that ovr 8-11 for Amirul hisham (baby cousin) naming ceremony. That should be fun, if i can get the time off.
alot of options going thru my head on where i should be headed towards, no clear directions yet. will just take things as they come. so long as at the end, it is all worth it.
my laptop is down with virus, anyone who has the necesary software to rid the prob?
Monday, November 5, 2007
In the midst of it all
Its been a eventful week with loads of happenings.
Alot to say, but kinda caught up at work.
the Business Times Pulses launch, the Citi media party, the weekend - was a happening week.
plus the open talk i had with bee.
Alot to say, but kinda caught up at work.
the Business Times Pulses launch, the Citi media party, the weekend - was a happening week.
plus the open talk i had with bee.
it helps since we havent had a great week with both being stressed and busy.
will give the details of the events e next time i blog.
just wanna say,
will give the details of the events e next time i blog.
just wanna say,
DO GO WATCH the GAME PLAN.
Of 5 stars, i'd give it 4.5 or even 5!
Of 5 stars, i'd give it 4.5 or even 5!
Really enjoyed the show. One of those wholesome comedy movies that you can watch with everyone. Entertained from start to end.
That movie jus made my weekend. =)
(yea i know i am easily contented. hah)
Compared to Mr Woodcock, this was better by leaps and bounds. Mr Woodcock was quite a disappointment.
another things i realised ovr this week is that, its truly simple to socialise. You just have to go up to someone, smile and say hi.
Compared to Mr Woodcock, this was better by leaps and bounds. Mr Woodcock was quite a disappointment.
another things i realised ovr this week is that, its truly simple to socialise. You just have to go up to someone, smile and say hi.
even after being in PR for almost 2 years, e tot of meeting new people stil nerved me
sometimes..
but i tink i can grow out of it. and you can too.
after all, all it takes is a genuine smile. everyone needs one. =)
Monday, October 29, 2007
Monday AGAIN.
i wish i nvr grew up
*sighhh*
going to sakura with bro, iffa and bee later.
its gonna be a yummy meal. love e food there.
iffa's first job, first pay and first treat.
i'm glad shes more or less settled in her job nw.
alhamdulila. =)
its been a real long time since e 4 of us went out.
e last was in march/april i tink. phewww long time.
pray bro's hand heals real soon. inshah allah.
tings keep happening, it makes me wonder whats wrong.
i guess only HE's got the answer.
went out with rashi ovr the weekend and all was great!
she was such a clown when bowling.
she got a hetrix btw. *grins*
should do it more often. =)
speaking to rashi and esp akka gave me more perspective on things ovr e weekend.
now i guess i know better what to expect and what to do.
but i still want things to go as per wat i mentioned to you ka.
even if it means they r gonna label me.
cos i do think thats wats right and best.
but then again, i'll jus wait and see wat e future holds.
ohh not forgetting FAwaz. i'm in love with this kid!
sure wont mind having a son like that. not one bit.
minus the times when hes cranky. hah.
*sighhh*
going to sakura with bro, iffa and bee later.
its gonna be a yummy meal. love e food there.
iffa's first job, first pay and first treat.
i'm glad shes more or less settled in her job nw.
alhamdulila. =)
its been a real long time since e 4 of us went out.
e last was in march/april i tink. phewww long time.
pray bro's hand heals real soon. inshah allah.
tings keep happening, it makes me wonder whats wrong.
i guess only HE's got the answer.
went out with rashi ovr the weekend and all was great!
she was such a clown when bowling.
she got a hetrix btw. *grins*
should do it more often. =)
speaking to rashi and esp akka gave me more perspective on things ovr e weekend.
now i guess i know better what to expect and what to do.
but i still want things to go as per wat i mentioned to you ka.
even if it means they r gonna label me.
cos i do think thats wats right and best.
but then again, i'll jus wait and see wat e future holds.
ohh not forgetting FAwaz. i'm in love with this kid!
sure wont mind having a son like that. not one bit.
minus the times when hes cranky. hah.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Zodiac - Aries
ARIES WOMAN
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt.
She thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for her to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal.
Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with.
She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do thing, nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing; as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she chooses you, she will need to be proud of you.
"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.
She need lots of love, but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always looks cool even when she is not. She likes to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.
If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club".
She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.
If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.
I must say this is a pretty accurate prediction about aries woman. certain parts nt so true like having a very good memory (someone jus told me earlier today that i should eat more ladies fingers) and to me love is AS IMPT as marriage. i guess i am kinda egoistic and all. but arrogance is nt my ting. those who know me well should know what kinda person i am. and for those who dun, dun judge me based on anything other than fact.
TGIF! have a great weekend guys. =)
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt.
She thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for her to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal.
Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with.
She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do thing, nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing; as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she chooses you, she will need to be proud of you.
"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.
She need lots of love, but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always looks cool even when she is not. She likes to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.
If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club".
She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.
If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.
I must say this is a pretty accurate prediction about aries woman. certain parts nt so true like having a very good memory (someone jus told me earlier today that i should eat more ladies fingers) and to me love is AS IMPT as marriage. i guess i am kinda egoistic and all. but arrogance is nt my ting. those who know me well should know what kinda person i am. and for those who dun, dun judge me based on anything other than fact.
TGIF! have a great weekend guys. =)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Little things in life that matter.
am sooo looking forward to this weekend!
meeting up with rashi after like eons, staying ovr at fari ka's place and having fawaz arnd.. weee. i'm so glad. and not forgetting my badminton session! its been more than 2 months since i played. cant wait. =)
have 2hses that am supposed to visit on Sat as well - Zeenatha akka's and nazira's. highly unlikely tat i can make it, but both of them r gonna be so mad if i dun. but oh well, they r understanding people. heh.
counting down.
workload is increasing and im glad.
going to visit mel after work with bee and shima. miss the weekend outing with the grp of 5.
get well soon mel! miss having u arnd so.
meeting up with rashi after like eons, staying ovr at fari ka's place and having fawaz arnd.. weee. i'm so glad. and not forgetting my badminton session! its been more than 2 months since i played. cant wait. =)
have 2hses that am supposed to visit on Sat as well - Zeenatha akka's and nazira's. highly unlikely tat i can make it, but both of them r gonna be so mad if i dun. but oh well, they r understanding people. heh.
counting down.
workload is increasing and im glad.
going to visit mel after work with bee and shima. miss the weekend outing with the grp of 5.
get well soon mel! miss having u arnd so.
Monday, October 22, 2007
lamenting
ok i HATE being sick!!
i think there is something seriously wrong with my immune system. i was sick twice in sept and again nw. sucky feeling.
lack of vit C, lack of wateva. arggh.
got to drink more green tea and eat more veges. heh.
and yes a food suggestion for u guys..
e next time u feel like having pizza, try Sarpinos Pizzeria.
recently me and bee were walking past eastpoint to get food for mel, when we came across an outlet. tried e pizza and thought it was yummm..
so on sat, when i felt like having pizza, SARPINOS...
their double pepperoni and chicken, cheese with red capsicum pizzas were good.
they have buy 1 get 1 free for 6 diff types of pizzas (yes e variety is lil for this deal) or buy one and get the next pizza/pasta at half price. a pretty good deal too.
their website is currently under maintenance but u can try calling them. the north branch i called was 62580600 located at jln Pemimpin. If ur looking for delivery at other places, just call and check with them
of cos theres the minus - the operator that i got could hardly speak good english.
but oh well, food was good. medium (12") was 28 bucks for 2 pizzas - a good deal indeed.
Wanna try Ritez Pizza e next time round. Anyone who has tried?
i think there is something seriously wrong with my immune system. i was sick twice in sept and again nw. sucky feeling.
lack of vit C, lack of wateva. arggh.
got to drink more green tea and eat more veges. heh.
and yes a food suggestion for u guys..
e next time u feel like having pizza, try Sarpinos Pizzeria.
recently me and bee were walking past eastpoint to get food for mel, when we came across an outlet. tried e pizza and thought it was yummm..
so on sat, when i felt like having pizza, SARPINOS...
their double pepperoni and chicken, cheese with red capsicum pizzas were good.
they have buy 1 get 1 free for 6 diff types of pizzas (yes e variety is lil for this deal) or buy one and get the next pizza/pasta at half price. a pretty good deal too.
their website is currently under maintenance but u can try calling them. the north branch i called was 62580600 located at jln Pemimpin. If ur looking for delivery at other places, just call and check with them
of cos theres the minus - the operator that i got could hardly speak good english.
but oh well, food was good. medium (12") was 28 bucks for 2 pizzas - a good deal indeed.
Wanna try Ritez Pizza e next time round. Anyone who has tried?
Friday, October 19, 2007
confused.
Current mood: confused
Reason: unsure of what actions to take
I am faced with a dilema since i had the convo with sahib bro about e proposed engagement.
he enlightened me on alot of things. and i am in a situation where i know what's right, but i do not dare do it. for many reasons.
1. am i making a rash decision
2. how will e elders react to it, esp when i will have to go against some of their wishes
3. uncertainity - what will e future hold?
4. e ramifications that i will have to face regardless of which decision i make
1 year, seems like forever to me.
but 40-50 years is alot more.
a proper decision has to be made. nt without sacrifices.
just pray HE shows me e best way out.
maybe i should pray istihaara - like i suggested to zeenath akka when she had uncertainity.
Reason: unsure of what actions to take
I am faced with a dilema since i had the convo with sahib bro about e proposed engagement.
he enlightened me on alot of things. and i am in a situation where i know what's right, but i do not dare do it. for many reasons.
1. am i making a rash decision
2. how will e elders react to it, esp when i will have to go against some of their wishes
3. uncertainity - what will e future hold?
4. e ramifications that i will have to face regardless of which decision i make
1 year, seems like forever to me.
but 40-50 years is alot more.
a proper decision has to be made. nt without sacrifices.
just pray HE shows me e best way out.
maybe i should pray istihaara - like i suggested to zeenath akka when she had uncertainity.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Count your blessings.
Chanced upon these pics today while surfing and have decided that i am not gonna complain anymore.
I'd never look at myself and go 'i look fat' again,
without counting my blessings.
Without thinking about all the food, drinks and clothes i have
about the almost perfect shetered life i have
Will never waste my food or frown over it without thinking about those who have nothing and yet remain hopeful.
I could never shower or waste water without thinking of these unfortunate children. What stirkes us as repugnant is their sign of hope.
Many of us would have seen this pic
We all know the guy who took this pic committed suicide 3 mths later
I would not have the strength to go on too, if i were him.
The world out there is cruel.
we all live this sheltered and blissful life.
The next time u wanna complain
about how tough life is towards u
think again.
count your blessings. always.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
bittersweet raya
Alrightz, Raya was nt as bad as i thought its gonna be.
For one thing, going to bishan was nt such a bad idea after all.. esp cos we went abt 8 and the bbq was already underway.. yes bbq on raya? we're a bunch of unique ppl.. haha.. actually no la. its jus tat bishan home is gonna be no more after like 10 yrs.. cos shafi's moving to his new home with his parents.. so yea it was a kinda farewell to e place. bbq was norm, a lil slow and e started off feeling raya stil was nt wat it used to be..
but first, Fawaz was sooooooooooo cuteee... lol. e part where he came to me tinking i was akka, looked up at me and started crying - that was really funny. heh.
the fun started pastt midnight.. when e elder had their conference abt grandpa.. so e cousins gathered. nt all, but a no of us.. aisha, arifa, ansari, fathima, faizal, julie, shabana, me and bro, shafi and nisha. quite a handful.. and we played...
CHARADES!! haha. yea it didnt sound like a great idea first.. esp cos there had nt been alot of communication between some of us in recent times. glad for a no of tings..
1) Communication with Aisha and Arifa. Alhamdulila. I really hope the days of unhappiness are ovr. honestly, i have no real idea why we drifted apart.. misunderstanding/ some wrong doing on my part? i really duno. but e problem with me is, i dun ask. haiz. but im glad on tat day we were all tog. =)
2) Anna and Aisha co-existed in one team. I know they have some major unhappiness, but i really hope all if forgiven and forgotten as of tis raya. honestly, since we r family, wats e use of bearing grudges.
3) It helped me loosen up and cheer up ALOT.
and alas, our uncles joined us in the game!! lol. so there were so many old songs, rules and hand gestures.. it was funnn.. we went home at 430am. hah. am glad all went well. but of cos it would have been better with the presense of
Rashi, banu, chachi and mummy. they were all missed.
Sat had visitors over.. and btw, i still get ang pows!! wooohooo.. though im working.. =)
And sunday, i was over at bee's place.. He came down to amk to fetch me to his place.. and no bike today cos.. i was wearing a kebaya.. sewn from the sari his mum gave me. hah. was nicee..
and the food there.. yummmmmm.. delicious.. his mum's a wonderful cook, just like mummy. felt myself tear a lil at the table tinking abt mummy. but well, people have to move on. like what akka told me, u have to tink abt the better things.. like e first raya with him.
so yeaps, alhamdulila.
thank god i have him
thank god i have anna
thank god i have people arnd me who care
his mum, she treats me like family. alhamdulila.
so yea after tat long break, am back at work. nt a gd feeling.. but then again, if holidays lasted for ever, i can nvr have that holiday that i am planning for to maldives. heh.
For one thing, going to bishan was nt such a bad idea after all.. esp cos we went abt 8 and the bbq was already underway.. yes bbq on raya? we're a bunch of unique ppl.. haha.. actually no la. its jus tat bishan home is gonna be no more after like 10 yrs.. cos shafi's moving to his new home with his parents.. so yea it was a kinda farewell to e place. bbq was norm, a lil slow and e started off feeling raya stil was nt wat it used to be..
but first, Fawaz was sooooooooooo cuteee... lol. e part where he came to me tinking i was akka, looked up at me and started crying - that was really funny. heh.
the fun started pastt midnight.. when e elder had their conference abt grandpa.. so e cousins gathered. nt all, but a no of us.. aisha, arifa, ansari, fathima, faizal, julie, shabana, me and bro, shafi and nisha. quite a handful.. and we played...
CHARADES!! haha. yea it didnt sound like a great idea first.. esp cos there had nt been alot of communication between some of us in recent times. glad for a no of tings..
1) Communication with Aisha and Arifa. Alhamdulila. I really hope the days of unhappiness are ovr. honestly, i have no real idea why we drifted apart.. misunderstanding/ some wrong doing on my part? i really duno. but e problem with me is, i dun ask. haiz. but im glad on tat day we were all tog. =)
2) Anna and Aisha co-existed in one team. I know they have some major unhappiness, but i really hope all if forgiven and forgotten as of tis raya. honestly, since we r family, wats e use of bearing grudges.
3) It helped me loosen up and cheer up ALOT.
and alas, our uncles joined us in the game!! lol. so there were so many old songs, rules and hand gestures.. it was funnn.. we went home at 430am. hah. am glad all went well. but of cos it would have been better with the presense of
Rashi, banu, chachi and mummy. they were all missed.
Sat had visitors over.. and btw, i still get ang pows!! wooohooo.. though im working.. =)
And sunday, i was over at bee's place.. He came down to amk to fetch me to his place.. and no bike today cos.. i was wearing a kebaya.. sewn from the sari his mum gave me. hah. was nicee..
and the food there.. yummmmmm.. delicious.. his mum's a wonderful cook, just like mummy. felt myself tear a lil at the table tinking abt mummy. but well, people have to move on. like what akka told me, u have to tink abt the better things.. like e first raya with him.
so yeaps, alhamdulila.
thank god i have him
thank god i have anna
thank god i have people arnd me who care
his mum, she treats me like family. alhamdulila.
so yea after tat long break, am back at work. nt a gd feeling.. but then again, if holidays lasted for ever, i can nvr have that holiday that i am planning for to maldives. heh.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Raya Greetings..
To all my fellow muslim frens,
Eid Mubarak.
Maaf Zahir Batin.
If i had in any way unknowingly hurt anyone, pls forgive and forget. And remember me in your duas. Inshah Allah.
May Allah Swt bless each and every one of you with strength, joy, love, rizq and baraqha. *ameen*
God bless,
P/S - My laptop is down with virus.. so no updates till i get back to work and clear all my work.
Have a blessed Eid / holidays all/ =)
Eid Mubarak.
Maaf Zahir Batin.
If i had in any way unknowingly hurt anyone, pls forgive and forget. And remember me in your duas. Inshah Allah.
May Allah Swt bless each and every one of you with strength, joy, love, rizq and baraqha. *ameen*
God bless,
P/S - My laptop is down with virus.. so no updates till i get back to work and clear all my work.
Have a blessed Eid / holidays all/ =)
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Dread.
Raya is coming.. A matter of just 2 more days BUT i'm not looking forward to it. In fact, i do not want it to come. Feeling of dread seeping in. Raya will never be the same again.
It used to be 4 of them, a simple happy family.
Not perfect but blessed.
She was a pampered princess who used to LURRRVVEEE Raya..
Cos it meant lots and lots of new clothes, good food and ang powsss..
She counted down to it endlessly,
It used to be 4 of them, a simple happy family.
Not perfect but blessed.
She was a pampered princess who used to LURRRVVEEE Raya..
Cos it meant lots and lots of new clothes, good food and ang powsss..
She counted down to it endlessly,
Though she didnt quite enjoy the fasting part.
She was a kid, a blessed one.
Then it became 3 of them at the table and 1 on bed.
It still was not too bad.
Atleast there was love and happiness.
Mutual support and trust existed.
It was family - Not perfect, but nevertheless still blessed.
Then it was just 3.
There was a feeling of loss at the table on Raya.
But then again, she was still around
She was a kid, a blessed one.
Then it became 3 of them at the table and 1 on bed.
It still was not too bad.
Atleast there was love and happiness.
Mutual support and trust existed.
It was family - Not perfect, but nevertheless still blessed.
Then it was just 3.
There was a feeling of loss at the table on Raya.
But then again, she was still around
Their pillar of strength, of love.
There was still good food, and some anticipation of the day.
The bond, the family bond
There was still good food, and some anticipation of the day.
The bond, the family bond
It held them tight through the good times and bad.
With the pillar, it seemed like just a matter of time before it all went back to norm.
She was blessed in life - with the best mum.
But one day, the pillar gave way
or should i say it was forced to go away (not like she chose to)
Now its just 2
oh wait, its going to be 6 at the table
but the bond that binds?
Does it still exist?
the bond that they call family
and the warmth that comes with it
Does it exist?
heck it doesn't even feel like family anymore.
BUT
she's still blessed.
with strength
and a strong personality
and faith
and belief
the belief that HE is going to see her through all of this.
after all,
if HE takes her to it,
HE will take her through it.
Right?
With the pillar, it seemed like just a matter of time before it all went back to norm.
She was blessed in life - with the best mum.
But one day, the pillar gave way
or should i say it was forced to go away (not like she chose to)
Now its just 2
oh wait, its going to be 6 at the table
but the bond that binds?
Does it still exist?
the bond that they call family
and the warmth that comes with it
Does it exist?
heck it doesn't even feel like family anymore.
BUT
she's still blessed.
with strength
and a strong personality
and faith
and belief
the belief that HE is going to see her through all of this.
after all,
if HE takes her to it,
HE will take her through it.
Right?
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
memories..
Some memories from early this yr..
01/01/07
07/01/07
20/01/07
and my fave..
April 07
So much has happened since the time we met, esp this yr, tat it feels like forever since i've known him.. true, like anyone else, we both have out shortcomings but i do believe its e bond that holds us together at the end of the day. the bond called love which will one day, inshah allah unite us in life 4ever.. (hee i know it sounds a lil cheesy).
we had our first quarrel two days ago (we have had minor arguments and bickering of cos but this was e first quarrel). ovr a stranger we both didnt know. but i am glad we resolved it well without things escalating. I am glad that hes extra patient with me as compared to his usual nature. and me, haiz i am still the same impatient person. haha.
i met my poly mates recently and when i told them i might be getting engaged next yr - xy was surprised. thats prob cos thats not the naz he knew back in poly days. naz was this opinionated girl who was nt into committment or settling down. she was someone with a adventurous spirit who wanted to do more than jus settle down and have children.
what i can say is, naz is still the same. just that she does nt worry abt the committment part anymore simply cos, she knows that even with e committment, she can stil achieve what she wants in life *Inshah Allah* cos her bee will stand by her (this she believes).
as for e children part, that can wait. cos like what bee said 'it started with us, and it can end that way'. not that i dun wan children or anything, but nt in a long time.
many many other priorities in life now.
Women in Saudi..
I just came across this blog of a Saudi Journalist and i realised..
Women are banned from driving in Saudi Arabia!
Okie i see some guys smiling at this idea (esp u bee), since many have this preconceived notion that women make bad drivers, the worst etc. watever. but still e reasons stated in the blog are.. errmm i choose nt to comment - yet.
Clerics and religious conservatives maintain that allowing women to drive would open Saudi society to untold corruption. Women alone in a car, they say, would be more open to abuse, to going wayward, and to getting into trouble if they had an accident or were stopped by the police. The net result would be an erosion of social mores, they say.
Erosion of social mores? Going wayward?
I think this just points to the lack of trust. If the men do not have sufficient trust in their women (be it wife, daughter, sister etc) of cos they would think they will go wayward, get in touch with bad company etc.
Open to abuse?
I cant say much about this.. maybe the men there are just more violent? and itchy? hmmm
Getting into trouble when they have an accident?
Ok, i admit women are weaker in terms of strength. They may injure more easily, pain alot more and break down frequently. but hey, accidents can happen to jus about anyone. and if god has willed at that moment that the person's life has to come to an end, it would. So then what trouble?
Of course, i truly believe in Islam (thought i admit i am unable to put into practice much of what is required). And in islam, women are to be protected by men. I 100% agree that men have to be the providers and head of the home. A man must be able to provide for his family should his wife decide to stay home and tend to the family. he should have the upper-hand and say in the household. BUT he absolutely cannot be domineering. OK, i've digressed a lil.
Going back to what i was saying, how can women behind the wheels cause a denegration of the society and erosion of moral values? I truly do not understand.
Many atimes, I am truly thankful that I am born and bred in this safe society. Maybe its cos safety is never an issue here that I take it for granted. Maybe if i was born in Saudi or malaysia, I'd nt take be saying this. I would nt be thinking in this manner. I would nt be so confident.
For one thing, even if i choose nt to wear the hijab here, I know i am still safe. and i know EVEN if i wear the hijab i am safe. No matter what time i choose to return home, or with whom i hang around.
And of cos education here is never a problem. I get to study the courses I want, in any school that i choose (co-ed or otherwise), I can choose the genre of work I wanna do, the gender and race of the frens I hang out. I believe that adapting to the sorrounding we live in is important. We live in a multi-racial society. Thus many atimes we cannot incorporate alot of the impt practices into our lifestyles.
But of cos, a woman living in Saudi (or Malaysia or Indonesia) probably has less chances of physically 'sinning' as compared to us who sometimes do not even have the opportunity to complete our fardhu prayers on time. There was once i had this conversation with my friend Fatima, whom i made a trip to penang with.
me: people in m'sia are fortunate. they have prayer halls everywhere and have no reason to miss any. work, school or whatsoever, things can be put on hold for u to go finish ur prayers and come back
fatima: yea thats true. we dun have it as easy. but hey, we make e extra effort to stop by at a mosque or go down when we r on our way out, even it its nt on the way. that way, the blessings we get will be more than they do.
makes perfect sense to me. God is fair.
One thing i do believe is religion is something between man and God. and HE is all forgiving. even if one, in the eyes of the others, may nt make a good muslim - its still between god and the individual.
Not quite sure hw to put my point across.. but hope u get the gist of what i mean when i say its between god and him.
oh well..
Women are banned from driving in Saudi Arabia!
Okie i see some guys smiling at this idea (esp u bee), since many have this preconceived notion that women make bad drivers, the worst etc. watever. but still e reasons stated in the blog are.. errmm i choose nt to comment - yet.
Clerics and religious conservatives maintain that allowing women to drive would open Saudi society to untold corruption. Women alone in a car, they say, would be more open to abuse, to going wayward, and to getting into trouble if they had an accident or were stopped by the police. The net result would be an erosion of social mores, they say.
Erosion of social mores? Going wayward?
I think this just points to the lack of trust. If the men do not have sufficient trust in their women (be it wife, daughter, sister etc) of cos they would think they will go wayward, get in touch with bad company etc.
Open to abuse?
I cant say much about this.. maybe the men there are just more violent? and itchy? hmmm
Getting into trouble when they have an accident?
Ok, i admit women are weaker in terms of strength. They may injure more easily, pain alot more and break down frequently. but hey, accidents can happen to jus about anyone. and if god has willed at that moment that the person's life has to come to an end, it would. So then what trouble?
Of course, i truly believe in Islam (thought i admit i am unable to put into practice much of what is required). And in islam, women are to be protected by men. I 100% agree that men have to be the providers and head of the home. A man must be able to provide for his family should his wife decide to stay home and tend to the family. he should have the upper-hand and say in the household. BUT he absolutely cannot be domineering. OK, i've digressed a lil.
Going back to what i was saying, how can women behind the wheels cause a denegration of the society and erosion of moral values? I truly do not understand.
Many atimes, I am truly thankful that I am born and bred in this safe society. Maybe its cos safety is never an issue here that I take it for granted. Maybe if i was born in Saudi or malaysia, I'd nt take be saying this. I would nt be thinking in this manner. I would nt be so confident.
For one thing, even if i choose nt to wear the hijab here, I know i am still safe. and i know EVEN if i wear the hijab i am safe. No matter what time i choose to return home, or with whom i hang around.
And of cos education here is never a problem. I get to study the courses I want, in any school that i choose (co-ed or otherwise), I can choose the genre of work I wanna do, the gender and race of the frens I hang out. I believe that adapting to the sorrounding we live in is important. We live in a multi-racial society. Thus many atimes we cannot incorporate alot of the impt practices into our lifestyles.
But of cos, a woman living in Saudi (or Malaysia or Indonesia) probably has less chances of physically 'sinning' as compared to us who sometimes do not even have the opportunity to complete our fardhu prayers on time. There was once i had this conversation with my friend Fatima, whom i made a trip to penang with.
me: people in m'sia are fortunate. they have prayer halls everywhere and have no reason to miss any. work, school or whatsoever, things can be put on hold for u to go finish ur prayers and come back
fatima: yea thats true. we dun have it as easy. but hey, we make e extra effort to stop by at a mosque or go down when we r on our way out, even it its nt on the way. that way, the blessings we get will be more than they do.
makes perfect sense to me. God is fair.
One thing i do believe is religion is something between man and God. and HE is all forgiving. even if one, in the eyes of the others, may nt make a good muslim - its still between god and the individual.
Not quite sure hw to put my point across.. but hope u get the gist of what i mean when i say its between god and him.
oh well..
Monday, October 8, 2007
Blessed..
Came across this link which made me feel alot better than I did in e beginning of the day.
Do take a look and do smile and be thankful for all that u have. Sometimes its the little things in life that really matter.. =)
http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/blessed.htm
I am blessed. *Alhamdulila*
Do take a look and do smile and be thankful for all that u have. Sometimes its the little things in life that really matter.. =)
http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/blessed.htm
I am blessed. *Alhamdulila*
Stagnant
Its back to work again after a relatively long break.
Was on leave thurs and fri for exams.. Alhamdilila exams went smooth. Just pray that I will get a distinction for this module, and inshah allah pass with a Degree with Distinction. Am 2 modules away from graduating. Can't wait.
Coming back to work after a rather long break is always a lil bad. Today when i started work itself, was nt feeling too good. Was surfing arnd websites for job opportunities and then it hits me again. Most gd positions require a Bach Degree atleast. i am glad i made the right choice to further my studies while working, thus atleast when i graduate, i have a degree and 2 yrs of working exp. Hopefully i get a good offer when i graduate and i can leave this place for one tats more accessible with more benefits.
Like i mentioned in one of my first blog entries, this place has alot of incentives but what i failed to mention was there r nt enough for someone to stay long-term. No one here is married, and things like maternity leave r virtually unheard of. Simply cos no one stays here long. This place is just a stepping stone to better opportunities. And I must say, i simply cannot wait to leave.
I read in Yashila's blog about her resignation.. and i must admit, it gets tough staying on in a place once ur feeling stagnant. tats e exact feel tat i get here.. but i am stuck here cos i need 2 yrs exp and a degree for it to look gd in my resume. and if i were to leave nw, i can only ask for a salary tat befits my dip and 1.5 exp. If i choose to leave in april, i can ask for more (not forgetting the bonus in jan. =P ). Alot of considerations and alot of constraints..
Maybe its god's test of strength? and patience.. heh. he probably knows well tat tats an area i seriously lack in..
Was on leave thurs and fri for exams.. Alhamdilila exams went smooth. Just pray that I will get a distinction for this module, and inshah allah pass with a Degree with Distinction. Am 2 modules away from graduating. Can't wait.
Coming back to work after a rather long break is always a lil bad. Today when i started work itself, was nt feeling too good. Was surfing arnd websites for job opportunities and then it hits me again. Most gd positions require a Bach Degree atleast. i am glad i made the right choice to further my studies while working, thus atleast when i graduate, i have a degree and 2 yrs of working exp. Hopefully i get a good offer when i graduate and i can leave this place for one tats more accessible with more benefits.
Like i mentioned in one of my first blog entries, this place has alot of incentives but what i failed to mention was there r nt enough for someone to stay long-term. No one here is married, and things like maternity leave r virtually unheard of. Simply cos no one stays here long. This place is just a stepping stone to better opportunities. And I must say, i simply cannot wait to leave.
I read in Yashila's blog about her resignation.. and i must admit, it gets tough staying on in a place once ur feeling stagnant. tats e exact feel tat i get here.. but i am stuck here cos i need 2 yrs exp and a degree for it to look gd in my resume. and if i were to leave nw, i can only ask for a salary tat befits my dip and 1.5 exp. If i choose to leave in april, i can ask for more (not forgetting the bonus in jan. =P ). Alot of considerations and alot of constraints..
Maybe its god's test of strength? and patience.. heh. he probably knows well tat tats an area i seriously lack in..
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I have learned..
In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday.
Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like herbreasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first.
The audience laughed so hard they cried.
She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words!
Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like herbreasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first.
The audience laughed so hard they cried.
She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words!
Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Smile from a stranger
Today, as i entered the lift, a complete stranger greeted me with a smile and a hello. A warm looking chinese man probably in his sixties, dressed in a shirt and tie. The smile instantly lifted my moods and made me smile too. Smiling is contagious - it is hard nt to smile back when someone smiles at you. You never know the difference u could make to the day of a stranger who's had a bad day. So guys, do smile more. After all, its an inexpensive way to improve your looks and brighten up your day. =)
Monday, October 1, 2007
Misuse?
I just came back from prayers. Since i work in a government building (thought we r just tenants here) there is this room allocated to muslims for their prayers. It is normal to see fellow muslimahs making up after finishing their prayers.
But earlier, i saw 2 malay girls who came into the room. They were both nt going to pray. initially they were fiddling with a digi cam and later, one of the gals started making up for the other girl and teaching her more about make up. Their reason for making up? 'Nak ambek gambar kan'. Take photos. Hmmm so is the prayer place the best place to do that? If you are nt able to pray, is it alright to step into the prayer place in the first place? I myself am nt very sure abt the answer to the latter cos there r differing views. But i think its allowed la.
I actually found it quite funny. And if there were any younger like in their late teens, i would just have laughed about it. But they were pretty grown up, prob in mid 20s? Hmm..
But earlier, i saw 2 malay girls who came into the room. They were both nt going to pray. initially they were fiddling with a digi cam and later, one of the gals started making up for the other girl and teaching her more about make up. Their reason for making up? 'Nak ambek gambar kan'. Take photos. Hmmm so is the prayer place the best place to do that? If you are nt able to pray, is it alright to step into the prayer place in the first place? I myself am nt very sure abt the answer to the latter cos there r differing views. But i think its allowed la.
I actually found it quite funny. And if there were any younger like in their late teens, i would just have laughed about it. But they were pretty grown up, prob in mid 20s? Hmm..
Reminiscent
Yesterday we had out annual family breakfast session at Bishan. This used to be a much anticipated session - when we were all much much younger.. just like the raya gathering at bishan every year.. but as the years have progressed, things seem to change, as do people.. To be honest, i would nt have gone if chachi had nt kinda 'coerced' me and ma bros to go.. One obvious thing i noticed was the no of people, as well as the variety of food has reduced greatly..
Maybe the cause for the change is the demise of some of our loved ones (in the past few years, we have seen 4 close loved ones pass on - jalal mama, chachi and my parents), the rifts between some families and even cousins.. or maybe, its jus that we have all grown up. What seemed to excite us when we were 10-15 does nt seem to excite one once u reach 20. Maybe also cos u hav seen the through the facade that many of them put up there. haiz.. Also largely cos rashi and banu are nt there.. whichever the case, things jus aint the same anymore.
I truly miss my childhood, the carefree life and the way i always got what i wanted, the way small joys seemed wonderful, and small things (like $2) seemed big. haha. Like i mentioned in my previous post, the grass is always greener on the other side.. When i was young, i wanted to get older. When i was a teen, i wanted to start working and now that i am working, i just wanna go back to my childhood or school days. Maybe its jus a human thing, never being satisfied with what you have.
The transition from being a student to a working adult is great, especially so if you're a working adult who is also studying. I have to admit, i am a slacker. I always wait till the last min to slog and somehw by god's grace i have made it this far. *alhamdulila* but honestly, working life aint all glitz and glam. True, my salary is alright for someone who jus turned 21. Some of e people around me even feel envious abt it. But hey, about 40% of it goes to paying off my poly and degree loan and not forgetting there are household bills to share with my bro..
Having chachi stay with us sure helps alot. Atleast she takes care of the groceries and cooking. i cannot imagine having to cook and clean while working and studying. i will die of exhaustion, really. Even the finances can be manageable but its the people and issues sorrounding us that makes life harder. Suddenly, you're faced with responsibility. Bills (did u know there was a bill for dustbins, tv licenses etc), notices, hse tenures, transfer of home ownership, cpf issues blah blah blah.
And you have to please the people around you, make sure u dun do anything (even minor) that may cause any resentment. Long gone r the days when i used to belief that 'I live my life the way i want. I dun bother abt what people have to say so long as my conscience is clear'. To have peace of mind, I have to bother these days and this is the hardest part of it all.
Like i mentioned earlier, i'm a slacker. i dun usually do something unless i really have to. I just hope i dun cock up anything big time anytime soon. Supposed to go see a lawyer for the hse issues later with bro. And bro just had a minor surgery on his leg! i really hope he recovers soon.
raya is cmg soon, and i'm nt in the mood for it. Its the 19th day today if i'm nt wrong. Time flies and i am glad! not cos raya wil be here soon, but cause the year will come to an end soon. Cant wait for that!.
Maybe the cause for the change is the demise of some of our loved ones (in the past few years, we have seen 4 close loved ones pass on - jalal mama, chachi and my parents), the rifts between some families and even cousins.. or maybe, its jus that we have all grown up. What seemed to excite us when we were 10-15 does nt seem to excite one once u reach 20. Maybe also cos u hav seen the through the facade that many of them put up there. haiz.. Also largely cos rashi and banu are nt there.. whichever the case, things jus aint the same anymore.
I truly miss my childhood, the carefree life and the way i always got what i wanted, the way small joys seemed wonderful, and small things (like $2) seemed big. haha. Like i mentioned in my previous post, the grass is always greener on the other side.. When i was young, i wanted to get older. When i was a teen, i wanted to start working and now that i am working, i just wanna go back to my childhood or school days. Maybe its jus a human thing, never being satisfied with what you have.
The transition from being a student to a working adult is great, especially so if you're a working adult who is also studying. I have to admit, i am a slacker. I always wait till the last min to slog and somehw by god's grace i have made it this far. *alhamdulila* but honestly, working life aint all glitz and glam. True, my salary is alright for someone who jus turned 21. Some of e people around me even feel envious abt it. But hey, about 40% of it goes to paying off my poly and degree loan and not forgetting there are household bills to share with my bro..
Having chachi stay with us sure helps alot. Atleast she takes care of the groceries and cooking. i cannot imagine having to cook and clean while working and studying. i will die of exhaustion, really. Even the finances can be manageable but its the people and issues sorrounding us that makes life harder. Suddenly, you're faced with responsibility. Bills (did u know there was a bill for dustbins, tv licenses etc), notices, hse tenures, transfer of home ownership, cpf issues blah blah blah.
And you have to please the people around you, make sure u dun do anything (even minor) that may cause any resentment. Long gone r the days when i used to belief that 'I live my life the way i want. I dun bother abt what people have to say so long as my conscience is clear'. To have peace of mind, I have to bother these days and this is the hardest part of it all.
Like i mentioned earlier, i'm a slacker. i dun usually do something unless i really have to. I just hope i dun cock up anything big time anytime soon. Supposed to go see a lawyer for the hse issues later with bro. And bro just had a minor surgery on his leg! i really hope he recovers soon.
raya is cmg soon, and i'm nt in the mood for it. Its the 19th day today if i'm nt wrong. Time flies and i am glad! not cos raya wil be here soon, but cause the year will come to an end soon. Cant wait for that!.
Friday, September 28, 2007
The Greener side
It is interesting hw we humans are never satisfied with what we have.. Atleast to a little extent. And how we always feel like the grass is greener on the other side. We tend to compare our problems with others and feel a lil affected that they are happier than you are, they have more physical wealth then you do, they have a nicer bf/gf, a better job, a better home etc etc. (There are always exceptions to the case of cos).
When i was young (b4 i turned a teenager) my life was very simple, though my family wasn't too well to do, i was nicely pampered by my dad. i got most of what i wanted being the younger one and being considered the one with more potential in the area of academia and of cos, being a gal sure helped. I was also known as an arrogant kid (something i am not proud of at all) by some of my frens and cousins. But as I grew up i matured fast, or should i say i was forced to.
My dad suffered a stroke when I was in sec 1 and from there (and from the eyes of a 13 yr old kid), life seemed to be going downhill. I was almost suicidal at some point in my life when (i can't remember how) but i started becoming more positive. Maybe its cos i started standing on my own feet and managed my finances thus it made me alot stronger. Or maybe simply cos i started putting my faith in god.
Losing dad at 16 and mum at 21 is tough, really tough. Especially losing mum. When i lost dad, I thought i had the most diff life but later i met people who went thru tougher times like a divorce. Then i started telling myself, atleast my parents loved one another till the very end. Many atimes, i have frens who confide in me and make it sound like they have the biggest problems and are at their wits end. I understand how they feel, cos i have felt those same emotions before. But now, i always tell them a simple thing.
The reason y your problem seems so big or ur life seems so miserable is simply because of ur perspective. Dun compare your life or yourself with others. And when u do, compare it with people who r less fortunate then you are. I have read about people who have no hands and support themselves by painting with their feet. I have heard of students who are wheelchair bound yet strive to excel in their studies and be independent. Why then do we, when we compare, put ourselves against people who r better off?
There will ALWAYS be someone who will be richer, better looking, with a better job etc etc. But do you not know that there are people who do not even have the fortune that you have? Not even the very basics like hands, legs, sense of sight or hearing. those who do not have both parents and end up in orphanages? Why then are we not happy with what god has given us?
I do truly belief in tis saying - True happiness is not about having everything, its about making the most of everything you have.
I admit, I'm not perfect. I sometimes feel like life isnt all too fair either.. But whenever that feeling seeps in, I jolt myself back to reality. Anyway, its not about telling god about hw big your problems are, its about believing in god to take u through it all.
Ok, strangely i started this blog wanting to talk abt the transition from teenage to adulthood - having to manage your finances, bills etc.. and then i ended up jus writing whatever came to my mind. haha. alright, will save that for the next time..
till i blog again..
cheers
When i was young (b4 i turned a teenager) my life was very simple, though my family wasn't too well to do, i was nicely pampered by my dad. i got most of what i wanted being the younger one and being considered the one with more potential in the area of academia and of cos, being a gal sure helped. I was also known as an arrogant kid (something i am not proud of at all) by some of my frens and cousins. But as I grew up i matured fast, or should i say i was forced to.
My dad suffered a stroke when I was in sec 1 and from there (and from the eyes of a 13 yr old kid), life seemed to be going downhill. I was almost suicidal at some point in my life when (i can't remember how) but i started becoming more positive. Maybe its cos i started standing on my own feet and managed my finances thus it made me alot stronger. Or maybe simply cos i started putting my faith in god.
Losing dad at 16 and mum at 21 is tough, really tough. Especially losing mum. When i lost dad, I thought i had the most diff life but later i met people who went thru tougher times like a divorce. Then i started telling myself, atleast my parents loved one another till the very end. Many atimes, i have frens who confide in me and make it sound like they have the biggest problems and are at their wits end. I understand how they feel, cos i have felt those same emotions before. But now, i always tell them a simple thing.
The reason y your problem seems so big or ur life seems so miserable is simply because of ur perspective. Dun compare your life or yourself with others. And when u do, compare it with people who r less fortunate then you are. I have read about people who have no hands and support themselves by painting with their feet. I have heard of students who are wheelchair bound yet strive to excel in their studies and be independent. Why then do we, when we compare, put ourselves against people who r better off?
There will ALWAYS be someone who will be richer, better looking, with a better job etc etc. But do you not know that there are people who do not even have the fortune that you have? Not even the very basics like hands, legs, sense of sight or hearing. those who do not have both parents and end up in orphanages? Why then are we not happy with what god has given us?
I do truly belief in tis saying - True happiness is not about having everything, its about making the most of everything you have.
I admit, I'm not perfect. I sometimes feel like life isnt all too fair either.. But whenever that feeling seeps in, I jolt myself back to reality. Anyway, its not about telling god about hw big your problems are, its about believing in god to take u through it all.
Ok, strangely i started this blog wanting to talk abt the transition from teenage to adulthood - having to manage your finances, bills etc.. and then i ended up jus writing whatever came to my mind. haha. alright, will save that for the next time..
till i blog again..
cheers
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Horoscope and Zodiac Compatibility
Heya guys,
Just a site to reccommend, I think its pretty interesting and accurate..
http://www.astrologyzone.com/
It has monthly forecasts for each month as well as zodiac compatibility..
Mine was pretty accurate.. Bee is Leo and I am a Arian..
Here goes..
I am Aries, My Lover is Leo
This is a sensational meeting of kindred souls, a sunny relationship filled with light, power, energy and strength. Snap up this lover who was made to satisfy an Aries.
There will be no shortage of bright ideas, spicy conversations, and adventurous things to do. Your Leo's Sun falls in your 5th house of love, so this match has many qualities that will make you happy. You'll adore Leo's big heart and his or her way of being able to make you smile no matter how tough a day you've had.
You both are fire signs, so you want to push the boundaries of life to the limit and discover the world around you. Fire signs are highly creative, so ideas will flow easily between you. The key to your success is that your expectations are big -- and on the same vibration. Because you want so many of the same things, you can make them come more easily.
Your lover adores romance and will surprise you in many different ways. Dining out is one of Leo's favorite things to do, so it's a sure thing you'll get to see some of the swanky places in town. Leo also is a snappy dresser -- male and female Leos always look put together, even if in the most offhanded way. They expect you to make an effort, too. Tired, tattered jeans and sweats day after day isn't going to get their heart thumping any faster. Your lover is very visual and needs to be attracted to what he or she sees on you as well as what is in you.
Leo is a master of seduction, yet Aries likes to lead, so you may have to hand your lover the controls now and then. Don't worry -- this is one "war" in which you'll gladly surrender to your captor!
In bed is where you see how this tryst will lead to commitment. Love is hot, sweet, tender, and all-around terrific! You both have an awesome sense of passion, and sizzle up enough energy to blast a rocket to the moon. The Lion or Lioness is a proud cat, so never, never stray, dear Ram, or there will be hell to pay. Like you, Leo wants to win and be your one-and-only; being chosen second best would never be enough.
Are either of you practical? No, but you're highly productive, so hopefully you'll both generate enough cash to keep the wolf from the door. This is a partnership of two bosses, for both of you like to take charge. This is why you generate such strong electrical currents! There will always be dynamic tension present between you.
Leo is a fixed sign, so you may bemoan their stubbornness at times. As the slightly more flexible of the two, you may have to bend to achieve closure. You know this is never easy for you. When the Lion and the Ram fight, they have screaming matches, with the Lion's roar intended to intimidate the Ram into submission. Better not to allow things to get out of hand. Suggest instead, in the sexiest, most erotic way, that you make up. Once hurt, the Lion's pride is hard to nurse back to health, so always let your lover save face if you want this union to survive.
You are made for one another and understand each other's needs, so don't let this sensual feline get away!
Do check out the site!
Cheers,
Just a site to reccommend, I think its pretty interesting and accurate..
http://www.astrologyzone.com/
It has monthly forecasts for each month as well as zodiac compatibility..
Mine was pretty accurate.. Bee is Leo and I am a Arian..
Here goes..
I am Aries, My Lover is Leo
This is a sensational meeting of kindred souls, a sunny relationship filled with light, power, energy and strength. Snap up this lover who was made to satisfy an Aries.
There will be no shortage of bright ideas, spicy conversations, and adventurous things to do. Your Leo's Sun falls in your 5th house of love, so this match has many qualities that will make you happy. You'll adore Leo's big heart and his or her way of being able to make you smile no matter how tough a day you've had.
You both are fire signs, so you want to push the boundaries of life to the limit and discover the world around you. Fire signs are highly creative, so ideas will flow easily between you. The key to your success is that your expectations are big -- and on the same vibration. Because you want so many of the same things, you can make them come more easily.
Your lover adores romance and will surprise you in many different ways. Dining out is one of Leo's favorite things to do, so it's a sure thing you'll get to see some of the swanky places in town. Leo also is a snappy dresser -- male and female Leos always look put together, even if in the most offhanded way. They expect you to make an effort, too. Tired, tattered jeans and sweats day after day isn't going to get their heart thumping any faster. Your lover is very visual and needs to be attracted to what he or she sees on you as well as what is in you.
Leo is a master of seduction, yet Aries likes to lead, so you may have to hand your lover the controls now and then. Don't worry -- this is one "war" in which you'll gladly surrender to your captor!
In bed is where you see how this tryst will lead to commitment. Love is hot, sweet, tender, and all-around terrific! You both have an awesome sense of passion, and sizzle up enough energy to blast a rocket to the moon. The Lion or Lioness is a proud cat, so never, never stray, dear Ram, or there will be hell to pay. Like you, Leo wants to win and be your one-and-only; being chosen second best would never be enough.
Are either of you practical? No, but you're highly productive, so hopefully you'll both generate enough cash to keep the wolf from the door. This is a partnership of two bosses, for both of you like to take charge. This is why you generate such strong electrical currents! There will always be dynamic tension present between you.
Leo is a fixed sign, so you may bemoan their stubbornness at times. As the slightly more flexible of the two, you may have to bend to achieve closure. You know this is never easy for you. When the Lion and the Ram fight, they have screaming matches, with the Lion's roar intended to intimidate the Ram into submission. Better not to allow things to get out of hand. Suggest instead, in the sexiest, most erotic way, that you make up. Once hurt, the Lion's pride is hard to nurse back to health, so always let your lover save face if you want this union to survive.
You are made for one another and understand each other's needs, so don't let this sensual feline get away!
Do check out the site!
Cheers,
Grillers - a must try food outlet.
Its been 6 days since i visited the doctor and for the first time in my life I actually finished my course of antibiotics but yet I'm STILL not fully well yet. I'm taking Vit C as well. haiz.. think my immune system is real weak. gotta do something about it..
On Mon, met Zeenath sis and Fathima together with bee for break fast.. and as usual waited real long for fathima.. but cant quite blame her also la.. shes so busy in NIE that its hard to see her much these days.. trying time for her i guess.. am just looking forward to her wedding and engagement. heh.. we were supposed to go to bugis, but since we were late, we settled for tiong bahru and ate at GRillers!
The food at Grillers is great! Much better and more value for money than swensons.. You should all go try it.. and its been made Halal. my smoked chicken spagetti, garlic bread and their country chicken, chicken cutlet etc was all good.. yummmm.. i was telling bee we should go there more often.. but sadly he aint the kind who enjoys western much.. oh well, but he always makes e effort to pamper me, thus if i say so, i'm sure he will. heh.
Had a great time catching up with them.. Feel blessed to have wonderful people arnd me.. frens like fathima, 'sister' like zeenath, and a soulmate plus (some) great family members.. life is good. alhamdulila! (sometimes) .. oh and fathima was relating the paruthiveeran climax to us - gross and sad. do catch it when u get the time.
Its already the 14th day of fasting! time really flies.. and thats good. doesnt quite feel like the festive mood one bit. haiz. tis raya wil be sad, with all the memories and the feeling of absense and emptiness. dun even wanna think about it.
Today started off a lil bad.. Bee's facing loadsa stress at work and theres lil i can do or say to make things better for him. I guess jobs in the audit or accounts line jus aint easy like wat farida akka always says.. clients in any field are always a headache.. but i guess its all the worse in their line.. hmm. i really hope work's gonna get more manageable for him soon. but the thing is, even when hes stressed, he tries to put on a cheerful front when he talks to me on the phone.. but somehow, i can usually see through it. Inshah allah, just pray all gets better soon..
Some good news might be coming up end of this year, inshah allah.. if all goes well, am looking forward to it. =) I received a smile from some guy located in bahrain in friendster with a short msg 'nice eyes!'. haha. tat was nice of e fella.. just a genuine compliment.. he didnt try to add me or anything - my profile is private.
better get back to work now. heh..
till i blog again..
cheers,
On Mon, met Zeenath sis and Fathima together with bee for break fast.. and as usual waited real long for fathima.. but cant quite blame her also la.. shes so busy in NIE that its hard to see her much these days.. trying time for her i guess.. am just looking forward to her wedding and engagement. heh.. we were supposed to go to bugis, but since we were late, we settled for tiong bahru and ate at GRillers!
The food at Grillers is great! Much better and more value for money than swensons.. You should all go try it.. and its been made Halal. my smoked chicken spagetti, garlic bread and their country chicken, chicken cutlet etc was all good.. yummmm.. i was telling bee we should go there more often.. but sadly he aint the kind who enjoys western much.. oh well, but he always makes e effort to pamper me, thus if i say so, i'm sure he will. heh.
Had a great time catching up with them.. Feel blessed to have wonderful people arnd me.. frens like fathima, 'sister' like zeenath, and a soulmate plus (some) great family members.. life is good. alhamdulila! (sometimes) .. oh and fathima was relating the paruthiveeran climax to us - gross and sad. do catch it when u get the time.
Its already the 14th day of fasting! time really flies.. and thats good. doesnt quite feel like the festive mood one bit. haiz. tis raya wil be sad, with all the memories and the feeling of absense and emptiness. dun even wanna think about it.
Today started off a lil bad.. Bee's facing loadsa stress at work and theres lil i can do or say to make things better for him. I guess jobs in the audit or accounts line jus aint easy like wat farida akka always says.. clients in any field are always a headache.. but i guess its all the worse in their line.. hmm. i really hope work's gonna get more manageable for him soon. but the thing is, even when hes stressed, he tries to put on a cheerful front when he talks to me on the phone.. but somehow, i can usually see through it. Inshah allah, just pray all gets better soon..
Some good news might be coming up end of this year, inshah allah.. if all goes well, am looking forward to it. =) I received a smile from some guy located in bahrain in friendster with a short msg 'nice eyes!'. haha. tat was nice of e fella.. just a genuine compliment.. he didnt try to add me or anything - my profile is private.
better get back to work now. heh..
till i blog again..
cheers,
Monday, September 24, 2007
Children these days..
On thurs, after breaking fast outside, I was queuing up at Prima Deli to get a waffle when i caught a glimpse of an example how much face children these days are given and the extent to which they are pampered by their parents.
There was this chubby young girl, probably about 5-7 years old at most in the shop with her dad while her mum was in the queue to order the waffle. She was saying something to her dad, to which he started to respond, and she, not agreeing with what he was saying just hit him on the chest and went 'shut up! ur stupid'. I was for a moment stunned and thought my ears registered otherwise, but she repeated it again.
The father casually looked around at the moment and his eyes caught mine. And what i think i saw in his eyes was a slightly embarassed look at what his daughter had just said. But what do you think he said or did to her? NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING. Boy, was i amazed at his patience. Shortly after, this girl (who as i mentioned earlier is already chubby), pointed to a rather pudgy couple (and i mean really pointed directly at) and went 'so fat!'. argggh. Whats becoming of the younger generation?
I cannot imagine coming out of the place in one piece if I was the gal in the picture about 15 years ago. Though i was a relatively pampered kid who got much of what i wanted, i could NEVER have got away with that. I mean, its just plain, utter disrespect. I felt sad for the parents, at the same time, i feel they deserved it. The parents should have taken actions to recitfy the problem, not jus keep mum about it.
Which brings me a worrying thought, how is my child going to turn out in the near future? I believe in providing the best for my child, all that i did not get when i was younger. But at the same time, i believe respect and good manners are absolutely essential for the upbringing on a child. I would of cos pamper him/her, but at the same time, i would definitely nt be tolerant of such bahavoir.
And now, why are children so ill mannered these days? Cos at most times parents are working and have lil time for children. Children grow up with maids or grandparents who do nt have the heart to tell them off. No doubt, a child who grows with grandparents will be taught several essential values but sometimes they jus pamper him/her way too much. Worse is it for children who grow up in maid's care. Children learn from the way that parents behave towards the domestic helpers and they know that their maids do not have to be 'respected'?
In the fast paced world we live in today, it is absolutely essential for both parents to work to get by with the rising cost of living. But parents really should spend time with children. Material possessions and toys aint gonna give your child the kind of happiness and behavioral attributes that are deemed acceptable in any society.
and now, how much worse can things get? i wonder...
There was this chubby young girl, probably about 5-7 years old at most in the shop with her dad while her mum was in the queue to order the waffle. She was saying something to her dad, to which he started to respond, and she, not agreeing with what he was saying just hit him on the chest and went 'shut up! ur stupid'. I was for a moment stunned and thought my ears registered otherwise, but she repeated it again.
The father casually looked around at the moment and his eyes caught mine. And what i think i saw in his eyes was a slightly embarassed look at what his daughter had just said. But what do you think he said or did to her? NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING. Boy, was i amazed at his patience. Shortly after, this girl (who as i mentioned earlier is already chubby), pointed to a rather pudgy couple (and i mean really pointed directly at) and went 'so fat!'. argggh. Whats becoming of the younger generation?
I cannot imagine coming out of the place in one piece if I was the gal in the picture about 15 years ago. Though i was a relatively pampered kid who got much of what i wanted, i could NEVER have got away with that. I mean, its just plain, utter disrespect. I felt sad for the parents, at the same time, i feel they deserved it. The parents should have taken actions to recitfy the problem, not jus keep mum about it.
Which brings me a worrying thought, how is my child going to turn out in the near future? I believe in providing the best for my child, all that i did not get when i was younger. But at the same time, i believe respect and good manners are absolutely essential for the upbringing on a child. I would of cos pamper him/her, but at the same time, i would definitely nt be tolerant of such bahavoir.
And now, why are children so ill mannered these days? Cos at most times parents are working and have lil time for children. Children grow up with maids or grandparents who do nt have the heart to tell them off. No doubt, a child who grows with grandparents will be taught several essential values but sometimes they jus pamper him/her way too much. Worse is it for children who grow up in maid's care. Children learn from the way that parents behave towards the domestic helpers and they know that their maids do not have to be 'respected'?
In the fast paced world we live in today, it is absolutely essential for both parents to work to get by with the rising cost of living. But parents really should spend time with children. Material possessions and toys aint gonna give your child the kind of happiness and behavioral attributes that are deemed acceptable in any society.
and now, how much worse can things get? i wonder...
Losing my voice..
Have not blogged for a couple of days, thus have alot of things on my mind to get off.. Been sick on Fri, went to the doc and she told me that my immune system is weak.. Duh, i jus got the flu on 2nd Sept and I was back at her clinic again on 21st. haiz. fortunately i can claim my medical expenses from my company. heh.
She gave me quite some medication and prescribed some Vit C tabs to take.. She also told me to make some lifestyle changes with regards to my constant lower back pain - wear less heels - the first being. Now this is a hard one, or maybe, its good. cos i have another reason to shop!. hehe. but honestly, haven recently been the mood to shop.. thinking more about saving money for the future. lol. i'm surprised at myself. ;)
Before i go into my blog proper, just a quote that i would like you guys to ponder.
'When a door of happiness closes, another opens. but often we spend so much time crying and fretting over the door that closed that we dun realise the one that has opened for us.'
This is in one way or other linked to the quote, When God takes you to it, HE will take you through it.
I am glad that when HE took my loved one from me, HE placed someone there to see me through all the hard times, HE put that one person there who could serve as my pillar of strength, as my confidante. This person has never failed to put a smile on my face even during my worst times and i am so glad that hes a part of my life. love ya bee. =)
Though no one person can replace the role of a mother in the life of a girl, bee and bro sure help me stay strong and cheerful. alhamdulila.
Will continue the blog in the next string.. better get back to work for now.. ciaoz..
cheers,
She gave me quite some medication and prescribed some Vit C tabs to take.. She also told me to make some lifestyle changes with regards to my constant lower back pain - wear less heels - the first being. Now this is a hard one, or maybe, its good. cos i have another reason to shop!. hehe. but honestly, haven recently been the mood to shop.. thinking more about saving money for the future. lol. i'm surprised at myself. ;)
Before i go into my blog proper, just a quote that i would like you guys to ponder.
'When a door of happiness closes, another opens. but often we spend so much time crying and fretting over the door that closed that we dun realise the one that has opened for us.'
This is in one way or other linked to the quote, When God takes you to it, HE will take you through it.
I am glad that when HE took my loved one from me, HE placed someone there to see me through all the hard times, HE put that one person there who could serve as my pillar of strength, as my confidante. This person has never failed to put a smile on my face even during my worst times and i am so glad that hes a part of my life. love ya bee. =)
Though no one person can replace the role of a mother in the life of a girl, bee and bro sure help me stay strong and cheerful. alhamdulila.
Will continue the blog in the next string.. better get back to work for now.. ciaoz..
cheers,
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Random thoughts..
Didn't really have a good start to the morning today.. haizz.. I was super sleepy when i awoke for sahur today and it was a struggle keeping awake to finish my prayers and alas i didnt reheat the food from yday break fast time, and it all spoilt. it was half a pot of chicken curry and just like that its all gone to waste.
i felt damn bad, nt really cos of the unhappiness its gonna cause chachi, but more cos she would have to cook again though shes fasting, unwell AND working the night shift.. gotta try and do someting to rectify, probably buy dinner back for all and ask her nt to cook..
Its thurs today, the week has really flown by.. tomorrow is friday and before u know it the weekends gone and a new week starts.. it jus seems like a vicious never-ending cycle.. On my way to work today, i jus kept asking myself 'What if I had done it'. That brought to my mind a whole series of qns that we at some point in time always ask ouselves. The what ifs and if onlys
What if I had done this instead of that
What if I had chosen this ovr that
If only I had nt been so silly
If only I had made the move
If only I had studied harder
If only I had thought about tis before
etc etc etc
Looking bad, life is full of mishaps.. Sometimes things never turn out the way you would want them to.. Thats when regret seeps into your heart and sometimes it haunts you. I always pride myself on never having any regrets in my life, cos whats done is done, nothings gonna change it..
But recently, I have this burning IF ONLY question in my heart that tends to hurt. But being the person tat I am, i always push it to the back of my head and tell myself that whats done is done and nothing can change it. A life lost is a life lost, nothings gonna change anything. Sitting down and weeping or worrying aint gonna solve my problems..
Sure its easier said that done.. I have spent days on end moody and upset and breaking down.. and the only person who knows about this is bee and HIM. Months have gone by and something I have realised during tis time is that people change. And the only way you can solve problems or enlighten yourself will be through your prayers..
This may sound cliche to many, but believing that 'If god takes you to it, HE will take u through it' sure helps in making one feel better. And slowly, you grow to realise that actually everything happens for a reason, and usually this is good.
Recently Rasheed and my bro had a misunderstanding. Initially the results of it seemed to be rather upsetting (considering hw my bro is nt a very tactful person, he says whats on his mind w/o thinking of hw ppl may take it. yes, it runs in the family haha) but later however i realised that it was all for good. Overall, after tat incident, I realise i'm sinning alot less. and thats very good. it gives me peace of mind.
Alhamdulila, bee and i now give more importance to prayers and we can visibly see the changes (positive of cos) in both emotional and physical state. problems dun seem so big anymore and tempers flare alot less.
Okay, I know this entry is full of random thoughts and it doesnt really flow.. but end of the day i just wanna highlight two things..
1. Treasure your loved ones and tell them how much you love them EVERYDAY cos tomorrow may never come.
2. Life is too short to be full of regrets. Dont keep looking back at the past and going IF ONLY or WHAT IF. move on.
and most importantly, place ur utmost trust in HIM.
one who believes in HIM will never fail.
have a pleasant day ahead guys.. i certainly hope my day turns out better soon. =)
cheers,
i felt damn bad, nt really cos of the unhappiness its gonna cause chachi, but more cos she would have to cook again though shes fasting, unwell AND working the night shift.. gotta try and do someting to rectify, probably buy dinner back for all and ask her nt to cook..
Its thurs today, the week has really flown by.. tomorrow is friday and before u know it the weekends gone and a new week starts.. it jus seems like a vicious never-ending cycle.. On my way to work today, i jus kept asking myself 'What if I had done it'. That brought to my mind a whole series of qns that we at some point in time always ask ouselves. The what ifs and if onlys
What if I had done this instead of that
What if I had chosen this ovr that
If only I had nt been so silly
If only I had made the move
If only I had studied harder
If only I had thought about tis before
etc etc etc
Looking bad, life is full of mishaps.. Sometimes things never turn out the way you would want them to.. Thats when regret seeps into your heart and sometimes it haunts you. I always pride myself on never having any regrets in my life, cos whats done is done, nothings gonna change it..
But recently, I have this burning IF ONLY question in my heart that tends to hurt. But being the person tat I am, i always push it to the back of my head and tell myself that whats done is done and nothing can change it. A life lost is a life lost, nothings gonna change anything. Sitting down and weeping or worrying aint gonna solve my problems..
Sure its easier said that done.. I have spent days on end moody and upset and breaking down.. and the only person who knows about this is bee and HIM. Months have gone by and something I have realised during tis time is that people change. And the only way you can solve problems or enlighten yourself will be through your prayers..
This may sound cliche to many, but believing that 'If god takes you to it, HE will take u through it' sure helps in making one feel better. And slowly, you grow to realise that actually everything happens for a reason, and usually this is good.
Recently Rasheed and my bro had a misunderstanding. Initially the results of it seemed to be rather upsetting (considering hw my bro is nt a very tactful person, he says whats on his mind w/o thinking of hw ppl may take it. yes, it runs in the family haha) but later however i realised that it was all for good. Overall, after tat incident, I realise i'm sinning alot less. and thats very good. it gives me peace of mind.
Alhamdulila, bee and i now give more importance to prayers and we can visibly see the changes (positive of cos) in both emotional and physical state. problems dun seem so big anymore and tempers flare alot less.
Okay, I know this entry is full of random thoughts and it doesnt really flow.. but end of the day i just wanna highlight two things..
1. Treasure your loved ones and tell them how much you love them EVERYDAY cos tomorrow may never come.
2. Life is too short to be full of regrets. Dont keep looking back at the past and going IF ONLY or WHAT IF. move on.
and most importantly, place ur utmost trust in HIM.
one who believes in HIM will never fail.
have a pleasant day ahead guys.. i certainly hope my day turns out better soon. =)
cheers,
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Finally blogging..
Always had the intention to blog but was just way too lazy to start it..
And i realise that I really need to do some writing in order to keep my vocabulary skills intact. haha - besides work of cos. ;)
Anyway, just to update you guys on the status of things on my side..
Alright guys, I am doing well now, with the grace of god. The demise of my loved one did leave me stricken, but oh well, life goes on and i'm just glad shes been relieved of her suffering.
And yes, I am STILL in my prev company - the place that I interned.. Its been about 20 months, and I am waiting to leave but hey the benefits here are pretty awesome that sometimes I cant help but think twice about this.
I mean, where else are you allowed to come in 15-30 mins late, take long lunches, have wonderful colleagues, a huge table all to urself, early leave for the fasting month, bonus every Jan and a guaranteed increment every yr? hmm life sure sounds good here.. but honestly, sometimes i ponder if thats all one needs to get from a job.
Job satisfaction is something that is essential for one to feel good at the end of a long working day or week. I feel myself pondering every once in a while
Am I making full use of my potential?
When I went back to poly for a Graduates Advisory Committee meeting, Ms Loh and Ms Peters, my two very fav lecturers back at SP were very happy for me. Ms Loh in particular encouraged me to stay in Huntington for 2-3 years atleast as it will provide me with very relevant experience.
Sure, I have learnt alot here. I started as an intern, progressed to a PR Asst and am nw a PR Exec. Got my first promo in 8 months. And i know in abt 3 months, when I finish my degree, I'll be made an associate. What else could I ask for right? It all seems perfect, until one of those low periods hit you and then you start wondering, am I doing the right thing.
But oh well, i'll just have to go with the flow and trust in HIM to show me the right directions.
On a happier note, bro is back to work as a medic. Cant help but feel happy for him cos I know this job gives him satisfcation at the end of the day. And i sure hope things go back to normal soon. I will now have more time for my small talks with him and i will finally be able to see him daily! yay. =) And yes iffa and bro are back together and i am SOO happy about it. Elated is the word. Inshah Allah, i pray they will always last and live happily ever after... The way I pray and believe Rasheed and I will. Did i say I soo missed iffa?.
And theres a whole list of other ppl i miss..
Rashi
Banu
Fawaz (my baby nephew)
My nieces Shamila and Shamina
Irsath
and my beeeee...
the days are just flying by and everyone is soo busy these days. wonder where its all gonna lead to. am meeting the mates later for break fast.. the guys r flying off on Fri and of all times Kel is sick now.. hope he recovers soon. i'm gonna miss our weekend outings boy.
till i blog again,
happy ramadan to all ma fellow muslim mates.
cheers,
And i realise that I really need to do some writing in order to keep my vocabulary skills intact. haha - besides work of cos. ;)
Anyway, just to update you guys on the status of things on my side..
Alright guys, I am doing well now, with the grace of god. The demise of my loved one did leave me stricken, but oh well, life goes on and i'm just glad shes been relieved of her suffering.
And yes, I am STILL in my prev company - the place that I interned.. Its been about 20 months, and I am waiting to leave but hey the benefits here are pretty awesome that sometimes I cant help but think twice about this.
I mean, where else are you allowed to come in 15-30 mins late, take long lunches, have wonderful colleagues, a huge table all to urself, early leave for the fasting month, bonus every Jan and a guaranteed increment every yr? hmm life sure sounds good here.. but honestly, sometimes i ponder if thats all one needs to get from a job.
Job satisfaction is something that is essential for one to feel good at the end of a long working day or week. I feel myself pondering every once in a while
Am I making full use of my potential?
OR
Am i staying on just because I fear change?When I went back to poly for a Graduates Advisory Committee meeting, Ms Loh and Ms Peters, my two very fav lecturers back at SP were very happy for me. Ms Loh in particular encouraged me to stay in Huntington for 2-3 years atleast as it will provide me with very relevant experience.
Sure, I have learnt alot here. I started as an intern, progressed to a PR Asst and am nw a PR Exec. Got my first promo in 8 months. And i know in abt 3 months, when I finish my degree, I'll be made an associate. What else could I ask for right? It all seems perfect, until one of those low periods hit you and then you start wondering, am I doing the right thing.
But oh well, i'll just have to go with the flow and trust in HIM to show me the right directions.
On a happier note, bro is back to work as a medic. Cant help but feel happy for him cos I know this job gives him satisfcation at the end of the day. And i sure hope things go back to normal soon. I will now have more time for my small talks with him and i will finally be able to see him daily! yay. =) And yes iffa and bro are back together and i am SOO happy about it. Elated is the word. Inshah Allah, i pray they will always last and live happily ever after... The way I pray and believe Rasheed and I will. Did i say I soo missed iffa?.
And theres a whole list of other ppl i miss..
Rashi
Banu
Fawaz (my baby nephew)
My nieces Shamila and Shamina
Irsath
and my beeeee...
the days are just flying by and everyone is soo busy these days. wonder where its all gonna lead to. am meeting the mates later for break fast.. the guys r flying off on Fri and of all times Kel is sick now.. hope he recovers soon. i'm gonna miss our weekend outings boy.
till i blog again,
happy ramadan to all ma fellow muslim mates.
cheers,
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