i wish i nvr grew up
*sighhh*
going to sakura with bro, iffa and bee later.
its gonna be a yummy meal. love e food there.
iffa's first job, first pay and first treat.
i'm glad shes more or less settled in her job nw.
alhamdulila. =)
its been a real long time since e 4 of us went out.
e last was in march/april i tink. phewww long time.
pray bro's hand heals real soon. inshah allah.
tings keep happening, it makes me wonder whats wrong.
i guess only HE's got the answer.
went out with rashi ovr the weekend and all was great!
she was such a clown when bowling.
she got a hetrix btw. *grins*
should do it more often. =)
speaking to rashi and esp akka gave me more perspective on things ovr e weekend.
now i guess i know better what to expect and what to do.
but i still want things to go as per wat i mentioned to you ka.
even if it means they r gonna label me.
cos i do think thats wats right and best.
but then again, i'll jus wait and see wat e future holds.
ohh not forgetting FAwaz. i'm in love with this kid!
sure wont mind having a son like that. not one bit.
minus the times when hes cranky. hah.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Friday, October 26, 2007
Zodiac - Aries
ARIES WOMAN
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt.
She thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for her to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal.
Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with.
She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do thing, nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing; as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she chooses you, she will need to be proud of you.
"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.
She need lots of love, but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always looks cool even when she is not. She likes to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.
If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club".
She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.
If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.
I must say this is a pretty accurate prediction about aries woman. certain parts nt so true like having a very good memory (someone jus told me earlier today that i should eat more ladies fingers) and to me love is AS IMPT as marriage. i guess i am kinda egoistic and all. but arrogance is nt my ting. those who know me well should know what kinda person i am. and for those who dun, dun judge me based on anything other than fact.
TGIF! have a great weekend guys. =)
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt.
She thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for her to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal.
Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with.
She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do thing, nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing; as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she chooses you, she will need to be proud of you.
"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.
She need lots of love, but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always looks cool even when she is not. She likes to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.
If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club".
She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.
If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.
I must say this is a pretty accurate prediction about aries woman. certain parts nt so true like having a very good memory (someone jus told me earlier today that i should eat more ladies fingers) and to me love is AS IMPT as marriage. i guess i am kinda egoistic and all. but arrogance is nt my ting. those who know me well should know what kinda person i am. and for those who dun, dun judge me based on anything other than fact.
TGIF! have a great weekend guys. =)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Little things in life that matter.
am sooo looking forward to this weekend!
meeting up with rashi after like eons, staying ovr at fari ka's place and having fawaz arnd.. weee. i'm so glad. and not forgetting my badminton session! its been more than 2 months since i played. cant wait. =)
have 2hses that am supposed to visit on Sat as well - Zeenatha akka's and nazira's. highly unlikely tat i can make it, but both of them r gonna be so mad if i dun. but oh well, they r understanding people. heh.
counting down.
workload is increasing and im glad.
going to visit mel after work with bee and shima. miss the weekend outing with the grp of 5.
get well soon mel! miss having u arnd so.
meeting up with rashi after like eons, staying ovr at fari ka's place and having fawaz arnd.. weee. i'm so glad. and not forgetting my badminton session! its been more than 2 months since i played. cant wait. =)
have 2hses that am supposed to visit on Sat as well - Zeenatha akka's and nazira's. highly unlikely tat i can make it, but both of them r gonna be so mad if i dun. but oh well, they r understanding people. heh.
counting down.
workload is increasing and im glad.
going to visit mel after work with bee and shima. miss the weekend outing with the grp of 5.
get well soon mel! miss having u arnd so.
Monday, October 22, 2007
lamenting
ok i HATE being sick!!
i think there is something seriously wrong with my immune system. i was sick twice in sept and again nw. sucky feeling.
lack of vit C, lack of wateva. arggh.
got to drink more green tea and eat more veges. heh.
and yes a food suggestion for u guys..
e next time u feel like having pizza, try Sarpinos Pizzeria.
recently me and bee were walking past eastpoint to get food for mel, when we came across an outlet. tried e pizza and thought it was yummm..
so on sat, when i felt like having pizza, SARPINOS...
their double pepperoni and chicken, cheese with red capsicum pizzas were good.
they have buy 1 get 1 free for 6 diff types of pizzas (yes e variety is lil for this deal) or buy one and get the next pizza/pasta at half price. a pretty good deal too.
their website is currently under maintenance but u can try calling them. the north branch i called was 62580600 located at jln Pemimpin. If ur looking for delivery at other places, just call and check with them
of cos theres the minus - the operator that i got could hardly speak good english.
but oh well, food was good. medium (12") was 28 bucks for 2 pizzas - a good deal indeed.
Wanna try Ritez Pizza e next time round. Anyone who has tried?
i think there is something seriously wrong with my immune system. i was sick twice in sept and again nw. sucky feeling.
lack of vit C, lack of wateva. arggh.
got to drink more green tea and eat more veges. heh.
and yes a food suggestion for u guys..
e next time u feel like having pizza, try Sarpinos Pizzeria.
recently me and bee were walking past eastpoint to get food for mel, when we came across an outlet. tried e pizza and thought it was yummm..
so on sat, when i felt like having pizza, SARPINOS...
their double pepperoni and chicken, cheese with red capsicum pizzas were good.
they have buy 1 get 1 free for 6 diff types of pizzas (yes e variety is lil for this deal) or buy one and get the next pizza/pasta at half price. a pretty good deal too.
their website is currently under maintenance but u can try calling them. the north branch i called was 62580600 located at jln Pemimpin. If ur looking for delivery at other places, just call and check with them
of cos theres the minus - the operator that i got could hardly speak good english.
but oh well, food was good. medium (12") was 28 bucks for 2 pizzas - a good deal indeed.
Wanna try Ritez Pizza e next time round. Anyone who has tried?
Friday, October 19, 2007
confused.
Current mood: confused
Reason: unsure of what actions to take
I am faced with a dilema since i had the convo with sahib bro about e proposed engagement.
he enlightened me on alot of things. and i am in a situation where i know what's right, but i do not dare do it. for many reasons.
1. am i making a rash decision
2. how will e elders react to it, esp when i will have to go against some of their wishes
3. uncertainity - what will e future hold?
4. e ramifications that i will have to face regardless of which decision i make
1 year, seems like forever to me.
but 40-50 years is alot more.
a proper decision has to be made. nt without sacrifices.
just pray HE shows me e best way out.
maybe i should pray istihaara - like i suggested to zeenath akka when she had uncertainity.
Reason: unsure of what actions to take
I am faced with a dilema since i had the convo with sahib bro about e proposed engagement.
he enlightened me on alot of things. and i am in a situation where i know what's right, but i do not dare do it. for many reasons.
1. am i making a rash decision
2. how will e elders react to it, esp when i will have to go against some of their wishes
3. uncertainity - what will e future hold?
4. e ramifications that i will have to face regardless of which decision i make
1 year, seems like forever to me.
but 40-50 years is alot more.
a proper decision has to be made. nt without sacrifices.
just pray HE shows me e best way out.
maybe i should pray istihaara - like i suggested to zeenath akka when she had uncertainity.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Count your blessings.
Chanced upon these pics today while surfing and have decided that i am not gonna complain anymore.
I'd never look at myself and go 'i look fat' again,
without counting my blessings.
Without thinking about all the food, drinks and clothes i have
about the almost perfect shetered life i have
Will never waste my food or frown over it without thinking about those who have nothing and yet remain hopeful.
I could never shower or waste water without thinking of these unfortunate children. What stirkes us as repugnant is their sign of hope.
Many of us would have seen this pic
We all know the guy who took this pic committed suicide 3 mths later
I would not have the strength to go on too, if i were him.
The world out there is cruel.
we all live this sheltered and blissful life.
The next time u wanna complain
about how tough life is towards u
think again.
count your blessings. always.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
bittersweet raya
Alrightz, Raya was nt as bad as i thought its gonna be.
For one thing, going to bishan was nt such a bad idea after all.. esp cos we went abt 8 and the bbq was already underway.. yes bbq on raya? we're a bunch of unique ppl.. haha.. actually no la. its jus tat bishan home is gonna be no more after like 10 yrs.. cos shafi's moving to his new home with his parents.. so yea it was a kinda farewell to e place. bbq was norm, a lil slow and e started off feeling raya stil was nt wat it used to be..
but first, Fawaz was sooooooooooo cuteee... lol. e part where he came to me tinking i was akka, looked up at me and started crying - that was really funny. heh.
the fun started pastt midnight.. when e elder had their conference abt grandpa.. so e cousins gathered. nt all, but a no of us.. aisha, arifa, ansari, fathima, faizal, julie, shabana, me and bro, shafi and nisha. quite a handful.. and we played...
CHARADES!! haha. yea it didnt sound like a great idea first.. esp cos there had nt been alot of communication between some of us in recent times. glad for a no of tings..
1) Communication with Aisha and Arifa. Alhamdulila. I really hope the days of unhappiness are ovr. honestly, i have no real idea why we drifted apart.. misunderstanding/ some wrong doing on my part? i really duno. but e problem with me is, i dun ask. haiz. but im glad on tat day we were all tog. =)
2) Anna and Aisha co-existed in one team. I know they have some major unhappiness, but i really hope all if forgiven and forgotten as of tis raya. honestly, since we r family, wats e use of bearing grudges.
3) It helped me loosen up and cheer up ALOT.
and alas, our uncles joined us in the game!! lol. so there were so many old songs, rules and hand gestures.. it was funnn.. we went home at 430am. hah. am glad all went well. but of cos it would have been better with the presense of
Rashi, banu, chachi and mummy. they were all missed.
Sat had visitors over.. and btw, i still get ang pows!! wooohooo.. though im working.. =)
And sunday, i was over at bee's place.. He came down to amk to fetch me to his place.. and no bike today cos.. i was wearing a kebaya.. sewn from the sari his mum gave me. hah. was nicee..
and the food there.. yummmmmm.. delicious.. his mum's a wonderful cook, just like mummy. felt myself tear a lil at the table tinking abt mummy. but well, people have to move on. like what akka told me, u have to tink abt the better things.. like e first raya with him.
so yeaps, alhamdulila.
thank god i have him
thank god i have anna
thank god i have people arnd me who care
his mum, she treats me like family. alhamdulila.
so yea after tat long break, am back at work. nt a gd feeling.. but then again, if holidays lasted for ever, i can nvr have that holiday that i am planning for to maldives. heh.
For one thing, going to bishan was nt such a bad idea after all.. esp cos we went abt 8 and the bbq was already underway.. yes bbq on raya? we're a bunch of unique ppl.. haha.. actually no la. its jus tat bishan home is gonna be no more after like 10 yrs.. cos shafi's moving to his new home with his parents.. so yea it was a kinda farewell to e place. bbq was norm, a lil slow and e started off feeling raya stil was nt wat it used to be..
but first, Fawaz was sooooooooooo cuteee... lol. e part where he came to me tinking i was akka, looked up at me and started crying - that was really funny. heh.
the fun started pastt midnight.. when e elder had their conference abt grandpa.. so e cousins gathered. nt all, but a no of us.. aisha, arifa, ansari, fathima, faizal, julie, shabana, me and bro, shafi and nisha. quite a handful.. and we played...
CHARADES!! haha. yea it didnt sound like a great idea first.. esp cos there had nt been alot of communication between some of us in recent times. glad for a no of tings..
1) Communication with Aisha and Arifa. Alhamdulila. I really hope the days of unhappiness are ovr. honestly, i have no real idea why we drifted apart.. misunderstanding/ some wrong doing on my part? i really duno. but e problem with me is, i dun ask. haiz. but im glad on tat day we were all tog. =)
2) Anna and Aisha co-existed in one team. I know they have some major unhappiness, but i really hope all if forgiven and forgotten as of tis raya. honestly, since we r family, wats e use of bearing grudges.
3) It helped me loosen up and cheer up ALOT.
and alas, our uncles joined us in the game!! lol. so there were so many old songs, rules and hand gestures.. it was funnn.. we went home at 430am. hah. am glad all went well. but of cos it would have been better with the presense of
Rashi, banu, chachi and mummy. they were all missed.
Sat had visitors over.. and btw, i still get ang pows!! wooohooo.. though im working.. =)
And sunday, i was over at bee's place.. He came down to amk to fetch me to his place.. and no bike today cos.. i was wearing a kebaya.. sewn from the sari his mum gave me. hah. was nicee..
and the food there.. yummmmmm.. delicious.. his mum's a wonderful cook, just like mummy. felt myself tear a lil at the table tinking abt mummy. but well, people have to move on. like what akka told me, u have to tink abt the better things.. like e first raya with him.
so yeaps, alhamdulila.
thank god i have him
thank god i have anna
thank god i have people arnd me who care
his mum, she treats me like family. alhamdulila.
so yea after tat long break, am back at work. nt a gd feeling.. but then again, if holidays lasted for ever, i can nvr have that holiday that i am planning for to maldives. heh.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Raya Greetings..
To all my fellow muslim frens,
Eid Mubarak.
Maaf Zahir Batin.
If i had in any way unknowingly hurt anyone, pls forgive and forget. And remember me in your duas. Inshah Allah.
May Allah Swt bless each and every one of you with strength, joy, love, rizq and baraqha. *ameen*
God bless,
P/S - My laptop is down with virus.. so no updates till i get back to work and clear all my work.
Have a blessed Eid / holidays all/ =)
Eid Mubarak.
Maaf Zahir Batin.
If i had in any way unknowingly hurt anyone, pls forgive and forget. And remember me in your duas. Inshah Allah.
May Allah Swt bless each and every one of you with strength, joy, love, rizq and baraqha. *ameen*
God bless,
P/S - My laptop is down with virus.. so no updates till i get back to work and clear all my work.
Have a blessed Eid / holidays all/ =)
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Dread.
Raya is coming.. A matter of just 2 more days BUT i'm not looking forward to it. In fact, i do not want it to come. Feeling of dread seeping in. Raya will never be the same again.
It used to be 4 of them, a simple happy family.
Not perfect but blessed.
She was a pampered princess who used to LURRRVVEEE Raya..
Cos it meant lots and lots of new clothes, good food and ang powsss..
She counted down to it endlessly,
It used to be 4 of them, a simple happy family.
Not perfect but blessed.
She was a pampered princess who used to LURRRVVEEE Raya..
Cos it meant lots and lots of new clothes, good food and ang powsss..
She counted down to it endlessly,
Though she didnt quite enjoy the fasting part.
She was a kid, a blessed one.
Then it became 3 of them at the table and 1 on bed.
It still was not too bad.
Atleast there was love and happiness.
Mutual support and trust existed.
It was family - Not perfect, but nevertheless still blessed.
Then it was just 3.
There was a feeling of loss at the table on Raya.
But then again, she was still around
She was a kid, a blessed one.
Then it became 3 of them at the table and 1 on bed.
It still was not too bad.
Atleast there was love and happiness.
Mutual support and trust existed.
It was family - Not perfect, but nevertheless still blessed.
Then it was just 3.
There was a feeling of loss at the table on Raya.
But then again, she was still around
Their pillar of strength, of love.
There was still good food, and some anticipation of the day.
The bond, the family bond
There was still good food, and some anticipation of the day.
The bond, the family bond
It held them tight through the good times and bad.
With the pillar, it seemed like just a matter of time before it all went back to norm.
She was blessed in life - with the best mum.
But one day, the pillar gave way
or should i say it was forced to go away (not like she chose to)
Now its just 2
oh wait, its going to be 6 at the table
but the bond that binds?
Does it still exist?
the bond that they call family
and the warmth that comes with it
Does it exist?
heck it doesn't even feel like family anymore.
BUT
she's still blessed.
with strength
and a strong personality
and faith
and belief
the belief that HE is going to see her through all of this.
after all,
if HE takes her to it,
HE will take her through it.
Right?
With the pillar, it seemed like just a matter of time before it all went back to norm.
She was blessed in life - with the best mum.
But one day, the pillar gave way
or should i say it was forced to go away (not like she chose to)
Now its just 2
oh wait, its going to be 6 at the table
but the bond that binds?
Does it still exist?
the bond that they call family
and the warmth that comes with it
Does it exist?
heck it doesn't even feel like family anymore.
BUT
she's still blessed.
with strength
and a strong personality
and faith
and belief
the belief that HE is going to see her through all of this.
after all,
if HE takes her to it,
HE will take her through it.
Right?
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
memories..
Some memories from early this yr..
01/01/07
07/01/07
20/01/07
and my fave..
April 07
So much has happened since the time we met, esp this yr, tat it feels like forever since i've known him.. true, like anyone else, we both have out shortcomings but i do believe its e bond that holds us together at the end of the day. the bond called love which will one day, inshah allah unite us in life 4ever.. (hee i know it sounds a lil cheesy).
we had our first quarrel two days ago (we have had minor arguments and bickering of cos but this was e first quarrel). ovr a stranger we both didnt know. but i am glad we resolved it well without things escalating. I am glad that hes extra patient with me as compared to his usual nature. and me, haiz i am still the same impatient person. haha.
i met my poly mates recently and when i told them i might be getting engaged next yr - xy was surprised. thats prob cos thats not the naz he knew back in poly days. naz was this opinionated girl who was nt into committment or settling down. she was someone with a adventurous spirit who wanted to do more than jus settle down and have children.
what i can say is, naz is still the same. just that she does nt worry abt the committment part anymore simply cos, she knows that even with e committment, she can stil achieve what she wants in life *Inshah Allah* cos her bee will stand by her (this she believes).
as for e children part, that can wait. cos like what bee said 'it started with us, and it can end that way'. not that i dun wan children or anything, but nt in a long time.
many many other priorities in life now.
Women in Saudi..
I just came across this blog of a Saudi Journalist and i realised..
Women are banned from driving in Saudi Arabia!
Okie i see some guys smiling at this idea (esp u bee), since many have this preconceived notion that women make bad drivers, the worst etc. watever. but still e reasons stated in the blog are.. errmm i choose nt to comment - yet.
Clerics and religious conservatives maintain that allowing women to drive would open Saudi society to untold corruption. Women alone in a car, they say, would be more open to abuse, to going wayward, and to getting into trouble if they had an accident or were stopped by the police. The net result would be an erosion of social mores, they say.
Erosion of social mores? Going wayward?
I think this just points to the lack of trust. If the men do not have sufficient trust in their women (be it wife, daughter, sister etc) of cos they would think they will go wayward, get in touch with bad company etc.
Open to abuse?
I cant say much about this.. maybe the men there are just more violent? and itchy? hmmm
Getting into trouble when they have an accident?
Ok, i admit women are weaker in terms of strength. They may injure more easily, pain alot more and break down frequently. but hey, accidents can happen to jus about anyone. and if god has willed at that moment that the person's life has to come to an end, it would. So then what trouble?
Of course, i truly believe in Islam (thought i admit i am unable to put into practice much of what is required). And in islam, women are to be protected by men. I 100% agree that men have to be the providers and head of the home. A man must be able to provide for his family should his wife decide to stay home and tend to the family. he should have the upper-hand and say in the household. BUT he absolutely cannot be domineering. OK, i've digressed a lil.
Going back to what i was saying, how can women behind the wheels cause a denegration of the society and erosion of moral values? I truly do not understand.
Many atimes, I am truly thankful that I am born and bred in this safe society. Maybe its cos safety is never an issue here that I take it for granted. Maybe if i was born in Saudi or malaysia, I'd nt take be saying this. I would nt be thinking in this manner. I would nt be so confident.
For one thing, even if i choose nt to wear the hijab here, I know i am still safe. and i know EVEN if i wear the hijab i am safe. No matter what time i choose to return home, or with whom i hang around.
And of cos education here is never a problem. I get to study the courses I want, in any school that i choose (co-ed or otherwise), I can choose the genre of work I wanna do, the gender and race of the frens I hang out. I believe that adapting to the sorrounding we live in is important. We live in a multi-racial society. Thus many atimes we cannot incorporate alot of the impt practices into our lifestyles.
But of cos, a woman living in Saudi (or Malaysia or Indonesia) probably has less chances of physically 'sinning' as compared to us who sometimes do not even have the opportunity to complete our fardhu prayers on time. There was once i had this conversation with my friend Fatima, whom i made a trip to penang with.
me: people in m'sia are fortunate. they have prayer halls everywhere and have no reason to miss any. work, school or whatsoever, things can be put on hold for u to go finish ur prayers and come back
fatima: yea thats true. we dun have it as easy. but hey, we make e extra effort to stop by at a mosque or go down when we r on our way out, even it its nt on the way. that way, the blessings we get will be more than they do.
makes perfect sense to me. God is fair.
One thing i do believe is religion is something between man and God. and HE is all forgiving. even if one, in the eyes of the others, may nt make a good muslim - its still between god and the individual.
Not quite sure hw to put my point across.. but hope u get the gist of what i mean when i say its between god and him.
oh well..
Women are banned from driving in Saudi Arabia!
Okie i see some guys smiling at this idea (esp u bee), since many have this preconceived notion that women make bad drivers, the worst etc. watever. but still e reasons stated in the blog are.. errmm i choose nt to comment - yet.
Clerics and religious conservatives maintain that allowing women to drive would open Saudi society to untold corruption. Women alone in a car, they say, would be more open to abuse, to going wayward, and to getting into trouble if they had an accident or were stopped by the police. The net result would be an erosion of social mores, they say.
Erosion of social mores? Going wayward?
I think this just points to the lack of trust. If the men do not have sufficient trust in their women (be it wife, daughter, sister etc) of cos they would think they will go wayward, get in touch with bad company etc.
Open to abuse?
I cant say much about this.. maybe the men there are just more violent? and itchy? hmmm
Getting into trouble when they have an accident?
Ok, i admit women are weaker in terms of strength. They may injure more easily, pain alot more and break down frequently. but hey, accidents can happen to jus about anyone. and if god has willed at that moment that the person's life has to come to an end, it would. So then what trouble?
Of course, i truly believe in Islam (thought i admit i am unable to put into practice much of what is required). And in islam, women are to be protected by men. I 100% agree that men have to be the providers and head of the home. A man must be able to provide for his family should his wife decide to stay home and tend to the family. he should have the upper-hand and say in the household. BUT he absolutely cannot be domineering. OK, i've digressed a lil.
Going back to what i was saying, how can women behind the wheels cause a denegration of the society and erosion of moral values? I truly do not understand.
Many atimes, I am truly thankful that I am born and bred in this safe society. Maybe its cos safety is never an issue here that I take it for granted. Maybe if i was born in Saudi or malaysia, I'd nt take be saying this. I would nt be thinking in this manner. I would nt be so confident.
For one thing, even if i choose nt to wear the hijab here, I know i am still safe. and i know EVEN if i wear the hijab i am safe. No matter what time i choose to return home, or with whom i hang around.
And of cos education here is never a problem. I get to study the courses I want, in any school that i choose (co-ed or otherwise), I can choose the genre of work I wanna do, the gender and race of the frens I hang out. I believe that adapting to the sorrounding we live in is important. We live in a multi-racial society. Thus many atimes we cannot incorporate alot of the impt practices into our lifestyles.
But of cos, a woman living in Saudi (or Malaysia or Indonesia) probably has less chances of physically 'sinning' as compared to us who sometimes do not even have the opportunity to complete our fardhu prayers on time. There was once i had this conversation with my friend Fatima, whom i made a trip to penang with.
me: people in m'sia are fortunate. they have prayer halls everywhere and have no reason to miss any. work, school or whatsoever, things can be put on hold for u to go finish ur prayers and come back
fatima: yea thats true. we dun have it as easy. but hey, we make e extra effort to stop by at a mosque or go down when we r on our way out, even it its nt on the way. that way, the blessings we get will be more than they do.
makes perfect sense to me. God is fair.
One thing i do believe is religion is something between man and God. and HE is all forgiving. even if one, in the eyes of the others, may nt make a good muslim - its still between god and the individual.
Not quite sure hw to put my point across.. but hope u get the gist of what i mean when i say its between god and him.
oh well..
Monday, October 8, 2007
Blessed..
Came across this link which made me feel alot better than I did in e beginning of the day.
Do take a look and do smile and be thankful for all that u have. Sometimes its the little things in life that really matter.. =)
http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/blessed.htm
I am blessed. *Alhamdulila*
Do take a look and do smile and be thankful for all that u have. Sometimes its the little things in life that really matter.. =)
http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/blessed.htm
I am blessed. *Alhamdulila*
Stagnant
Its back to work again after a relatively long break.
Was on leave thurs and fri for exams.. Alhamdilila exams went smooth. Just pray that I will get a distinction for this module, and inshah allah pass with a Degree with Distinction. Am 2 modules away from graduating. Can't wait.
Coming back to work after a rather long break is always a lil bad. Today when i started work itself, was nt feeling too good. Was surfing arnd websites for job opportunities and then it hits me again. Most gd positions require a Bach Degree atleast. i am glad i made the right choice to further my studies while working, thus atleast when i graduate, i have a degree and 2 yrs of working exp. Hopefully i get a good offer when i graduate and i can leave this place for one tats more accessible with more benefits.
Like i mentioned in one of my first blog entries, this place has alot of incentives but what i failed to mention was there r nt enough for someone to stay long-term. No one here is married, and things like maternity leave r virtually unheard of. Simply cos no one stays here long. This place is just a stepping stone to better opportunities. And I must say, i simply cannot wait to leave.
I read in Yashila's blog about her resignation.. and i must admit, it gets tough staying on in a place once ur feeling stagnant. tats e exact feel tat i get here.. but i am stuck here cos i need 2 yrs exp and a degree for it to look gd in my resume. and if i were to leave nw, i can only ask for a salary tat befits my dip and 1.5 exp. If i choose to leave in april, i can ask for more (not forgetting the bonus in jan. =P ). Alot of considerations and alot of constraints..
Maybe its god's test of strength? and patience.. heh. he probably knows well tat tats an area i seriously lack in..
Was on leave thurs and fri for exams.. Alhamdilila exams went smooth. Just pray that I will get a distinction for this module, and inshah allah pass with a Degree with Distinction. Am 2 modules away from graduating. Can't wait.
Coming back to work after a rather long break is always a lil bad. Today when i started work itself, was nt feeling too good. Was surfing arnd websites for job opportunities and then it hits me again. Most gd positions require a Bach Degree atleast. i am glad i made the right choice to further my studies while working, thus atleast when i graduate, i have a degree and 2 yrs of working exp. Hopefully i get a good offer when i graduate and i can leave this place for one tats more accessible with more benefits.
Like i mentioned in one of my first blog entries, this place has alot of incentives but what i failed to mention was there r nt enough for someone to stay long-term. No one here is married, and things like maternity leave r virtually unheard of. Simply cos no one stays here long. This place is just a stepping stone to better opportunities. And I must say, i simply cannot wait to leave.
I read in Yashila's blog about her resignation.. and i must admit, it gets tough staying on in a place once ur feeling stagnant. tats e exact feel tat i get here.. but i am stuck here cos i need 2 yrs exp and a degree for it to look gd in my resume. and if i were to leave nw, i can only ask for a salary tat befits my dip and 1.5 exp. If i choose to leave in april, i can ask for more (not forgetting the bonus in jan. =P ). Alot of considerations and alot of constraints..
Maybe its god's test of strength? and patience.. heh. he probably knows well tat tats an area i seriously lack in..
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I have learned..
In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday.
Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like herbreasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first.
The audience laughed so hard they cried.
She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words!
Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like herbreasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first.
The audience laughed so hard they cried.
She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words!
Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Smile from a stranger
Today, as i entered the lift, a complete stranger greeted me with a smile and a hello. A warm looking chinese man probably in his sixties, dressed in a shirt and tie. The smile instantly lifted my moods and made me smile too. Smiling is contagious - it is hard nt to smile back when someone smiles at you. You never know the difference u could make to the day of a stranger who's had a bad day. So guys, do smile more. After all, its an inexpensive way to improve your looks and brighten up your day. =)
Monday, October 1, 2007
Misuse?
I just came back from prayers. Since i work in a government building (thought we r just tenants here) there is this room allocated to muslims for their prayers. It is normal to see fellow muslimahs making up after finishing their prayers.
But earlier, i saw 2 malay girls who came into the room. They were both nt going to pray. initially they were fiddling with a digi cam and later, one of the gals started making up for the other girl and teaching her more about make up. Their reason for making up? 'Nak ambek gambar kan'. Take photos. Hmmm so is the prayer place the best place to do that? If you are nt able to pray, is it alright to step into the prayer place in the first place? I myself am nt very sure abt the answer to the latter cos there r differing views. But i think its allowed la.
I actually found it quite funny. And if there were any younger like in their late teens, i would just have laughed about it. But they were pretty grown up, prob in mid 20s? Hmm..
But earlier, i saw 2 malay girls who came into the room. They were both nt going to pray. initially they were fiddling with a digi cam and later, one of the gals started making up for the other girl and teaching her more about make up. Their reason for making up? 'Nak ambek gambar kan'. Take photos. Hmmm so is the prayer place the best place to do that? If you are nt able to pray, is it alright to step into the prayer place in the first place? I myself am nt very sure abt the answer to the latter cos there r differing views. But i think its allowed la.
I actually found it quite funny. And if there were any younger like in their late teens, i would just have laughed about it. But they were pretty grown up, prob in mid 20s? Hmm..
Reminiscent
Yesterday we had out annual family breakfast session at Bishan. This used to be a much anticipated session - when we were all much much younger.. just like the raya gathering at bishan every year.. but as the years have progressed, things seem to change, as do people.. To be honest, i would nt have gone if chachi had nt kinda 'coerced' me and ma bros to go.. One obvious thing i noticed was the no of people, as well as the variety of food has reduced greatly..
Maybe the cause for the change is the demise of some of our loved ones (in the past few years, we have seen 4 close loved ones pass on - jalal mama, chachi and my parents), the rifts between some families and even cousins.. or maybe, its jus that we have all grown up. What seemed to excite us when we were 10-15 does nt seem to excite one once u reach 20. Maybe also cos u hav seen the through the facade that many of them put up there. haiz.. Also largely cos rashi and banu are nt there.. whichever the case, things jus aint the same anymore.
I truly miss my childhood, the carefree life and the way i always got what i wanted, the way small joys seemed wonderful, and small things (like $2) seemed big. haha. Like i mentioned in my previous post, the grass is always greener on the other side.. When i was young, i wanted to get older. When i was a teen, i wanted to start working and now that i am working, i just wanna go back to my childhood or school days. Maybe its jus a human thing, never being satisfied with what you have.
The transition from being a student to a working adult is great, especially so if you're a working adult who is also studying. I have to admit, i am a slacker. I always wait till the last min to slog and somehw by god's grace i have made it this far. *alhamdulila* but honestly, working life aint all glitz and glam. True, my salary is alright for someone who jus turned 21. Some of e people around me even feel envious abt it. But hey, about 40% of it goes to paying off my poly and degree loan and not forgetting there are household bills to share with my bro..
Having chachi stay with us sure helps alot. Atleast she takes care of the groceries and cooking. i cannot imagine having to cook and clean while working and studying. i will die of exhaustion, really. Even the finances can be manageable but its the people and issues sorrounding us that makes life harder. Suddenly, you're faced with responsibility. Bills (did u know there was a bill for dustbins, tv licenses etc), notices, hse tenures, transfer of home ownership, cpf issues blah blah blah.
And you have to please the people around you, make sure u dun do anything (even minor) that may cause any resentment. Long gone r the days when i used to belief that 'I live my life the way i want. I dun bother abt what people have to say so long as my conscience is clear'. To have peace of mind, I have to bother these days and this is the hardest part of it all.
Like i mentioned earlier, i'm a slacker. i dun usually do something unless i really have to. I just hope i dun cock up anything big time anytime soon. Supposed to go see a lawyer for the hse issues later with bro. And bro just had a minor surgery on his leg! i really hope he recovers soon.
raya is cmg soon, and i'm nt in the mood for it. Its the 19th day today if i'm nt wrong. Time flies and i am glad! not cos raya wil be here soon, but cause the year will come to an end soon. Cant wait for that!.
Maybe the cause for the change is the demise of some of our loved ones (in the past few years, we have seen 4 close loved ones pass on - jalal mama, chachi and my parents), the rifts between some families and even cousins.. or maybe, its jus that we have all grown up. What seemed to excite us when we were 10-15 does nt seem to excite one once u reach 20. Maybe also cos u hav seen the through the facade that many of them put up there. haiz.. Also largely cos rashi and banu are nt there.. whichever the case, things jus aint the same anymore.
I truly miss my childhood, the carefree life and the way i always got what i wanted, the way small joys seemed wonderful, and small things (like $2) seemed big. haha. Like i mentioned in my previous post, the grass is always greener on the other side.. When i was young, i wanted to get older. When i was a teen, i wanted to start working and now that i am working, i just wanna go back to my childhood or school days. Maybe its jus a human thing, never being satisfied with what you have.
The transition from being a student to a working adult is great, especially so if you're a working adult who is also studying. I have to admit, i am a slacker. I always wait till the last min to slog and somehw by god's grace i have made it this far. *alhamdulila* but honestly, working life aint all glitz and glam. True, my salary is alright for someone who jus turned 21. Some of e people around me even feel envious abt it. But hey, about 40% of it goes to paying off my poly and degree loan and not forgetting there are household bills to share with my bro..
Having chachi stay with us sure helps alot. Atleast she takes care of the groceries and cooking. i cannot imagine having to cook and clean while working and studying. i will die of exhaustion, really. Even the finances can be manageable but its the people and issues sorrounding us that makes life harder. Suddenly, you're faced with responsibility. Bills (did u know there was a bill for dustbins, tv licenses etc), notices, hse tenures, transfer of home ownership, cpf issues blah blah blah.
And you have to please the people around you, make sure u dun do anything (even minor) that may cause any resentment. Long gone r the days when i used to belief that 'I live my life the way i want. I dun bother abt what people have to say so long as my conscience is clear'. To have peace of mind, I have to bother these days and this is the hardest part of it all.
Like i mentioned earlier, i'm a slacker. i dun usually do something unless i really have to. I just hope i dun cock up anything big time anytime soon. Supposed to go see a lawyer for the hse issues later with bro. And bro just had a minor surgery on his leg! i really hope he recovers soon.
raya is cmg soon, and i'm nt in the mood for it. Its the 19th day today if i'm nt wrong. Time flies and i am glad! not cos raya wil be here soon, but cause the year will come to an end soon. Cant wait for that!.
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