It is interesting hw we humans are never satisfied with what we have.. Atleast to a little extent. And how we always feel like the grass is greener on the other side. We tend to compare our problems with others and feel a lil affected that they are happier than you are, they have more physical wealth then you do, they have a nicer bf/gf, a better job, a better home etc etc. (There are always exceptions to the case of cos).
When i was young (b4 i turned a teenager) my life was very simple, though my family wasn't too well to do, i was nicely pampered by my dad. i got most of what i wanted being the younger one and being considered the one with more potential in the area of academia and of cos, being a gal sure helped. I was also known as an arrogant kid (something i am not proud of at all) by some of my frens and cousins. But as I grew up i matured fast, or should i say i was forced to.
My dad suffered a stroke when I was in sec 1 and from there (and from the eyes of a 13 yr old kid), life seemed to be going downhill. I was almost suicidal at some point in my life when (i can't remember how) but i started becoming more positive. Maybe its cos i started standing on my own feet and managed my finances thus it made me alot stronger. Or maybe simply cos i started putting my faith in god.
Losing dad at 16 and mum at 21 is tough, really tough. Especially losing mum. When i lost dad, I thought i had the most diff life but later i met people who went thru tougher times like a divorce. Then i started telling myself, atleast my parents loved one another till the very end. Many atimes, i have frens who confide in me and make it sound like they have the biggest problems and are at their wits end. I understand how they feel, cos i have felt those same emotions before. But now, i always tell them a simple thing.
The reason y your problem seems so big or ur life seems so miserable is simply because of ur perspective. Dun compare your life or yourself with others. And when u do, compare it with people who r less fortunate then you are. I have read about people who have no hands and support themselves by painting with their feet. I have heard of students who are wheelchair bound yet strive to excel in their studies and be independent. Why then do we, when we compare, put ourselves against people who r better off?
There will ALWAYS be someone who will be richer, better looking, with a better job etc etc. But do you not know that there are people who do not even have the fortune that you have? Not even the very basics like hands, legs, sense of sight or hearing. those who do not have both parents and end up in orphanages? Why then are we not happy with what god has given us?
I do truly belief in tis saying - True happiness is not about having everything, its about making the most of everything you have.
I admit, I'm not perfect. I sometimes feel like life isnt all too fair either.. But whenever that feeling seeps in, I jolt myself back to reality. Anyway, its not about telling god about hw big your problems are, its about believing in god to take u through it all.
Ok, strangely i started this blog wanting to talk abt the transition from teenage to adulthood - having to manage your finances, bills etc.. and then i ended up jus writing whatever came to my mind. haha. alright, will save that for the next time..
till i blog again..
cheers
Friday, September 28, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Horoscope and Zodiac Compatibility
Heya guys,
Just a site to reccommend, I think its pretty interesting and accurate..
http://www.astrologyzone.com/
It has monthly forecasts for each month as well as zodiac compatibility..
Mine was pretty accurate.. Bee is Leo and I am a Arian..
Here goes..
I am Aries, My Lover is Leo
This is a sensational meeting of kindred souls, a sunny relationship filled with light, power, energy and strength. Snap up this lover who was made to satisfy an Aries.
There will be no shortage of bright ideas, spicy conversations, and adventurous things to do. Your Leo's Sun falls in your 5th house of love, so this match has many qualities that will make you happy. You'll adore Leo's big heart and his or her way of being able to make you smile no matter how tough a day you've had.
You both are fire signs, so you want to push the boundaries of life to the limit and discover the world around you. Fire signs are highly creative, so ideas will flow easily between you. The key to your success is that your expectations are big -- and on the same vibration. Because you want so many of the same things, you can make them come more easily.
Your lover adores romance and will surprise you in many different ways. Dining out is one of Leo's favorite things to do, so it's a sure thing you'll get to see some of the swanky places in town. Leo also is a snappy dresser -- male and female Leos always look put together, even if in the most offhanded way. They expect you to make an effort, too. Tired, tattered jeans and sweats day after day isn't going to get their heart thumping any faster. Your lover is very visual and needs to be attracted to what he or she sees on you as well as what is in you.
Leo is a master of seduction, yet Aries likes to lead, so you may have to hand your lover the controls now and then. Don't worry -- this is one "war" in which you'll gladly surrender to your captor!
In bed is where you see how this tryst will lead to commitment. Love is hot, sweet, tender, and all-around terrific! You both have an awesome sense of passion, and sizzle up enough energy to blast a rocket to the moon. The Lion or Lioness is a proud cat, so never, never stray, dear Ram, or there will be hell to pay. Like you, Leo wants to win and be your one-and-only; being chosen second best would never be enough.
Are either of you practical? No, but you're highly productive, so hopefully you'll both generate enough cash to keep the wolf from the door. This is a partnership of two bosses, for both of you like to take charge. This is why you generate such strong electrical currents! There will always be dynamic tension present between you.
Leo is a fixed sign, so you may bemoan their stubbornness at times. As the slightly more flexible of the two, you may have to bend to achieve closure. You know this is never easy for you. When the Lion and the Ram fight, they have screaming matches, with the Lion's roar intended to intimidate the Ram into submission. Better not to allow things to get out of hand. Suggest instead, in the sexiest, most erotic way, that you make up. Once hurt, the Lion's pride is hard to nurse back to health, so always let your lover save face if you want this union to survive.
You are made for one another and understand each other's needs, so don't let this sensual feline get away!
Do check out the site!
Cheers,
Just a site to reccommend, I think its pretty interesting and accurate..
http://www.astrologyzone.com/
It has monthly forecasts for each month as well as zodiac compatibility..
Mine was pretty accurate.. Bee is Leo and I am a Arian..
Here goes..
I am Aries, My Lover is Leo
This is a sensational meeting of kindred souls, a sunny relationship filled with light, power, energy and strength. Snap up this lover who was made to satisfy an Aries.
There will be no shortage of bright ideas, spicy conversations, and adventurous things to do. Your Leo's Sun falls in your 5th house of love, so this match has many qualities that will make you happy. You'll adore Leo's big heart and his or her way of being able to make you smile no matter how tough a day you've had.
You both are fire signs, so you want to push the boundaries of life to the limit and discover the world around you. Fire signs are highly creative, so ideas will flow easily between you. The key to your success is that your expectations are big -- and on the same vibration. Because you want so many of the same things, you can make them come more easily.
Your lover adores romance and will surprise you in many different ways. Dining out is one of Leo's favorite things to do, so it's a sure thing you'll get to see some of the swanky places in town. Leo also is a snappy dresser -- male and female Leos always look put together, even if in the most offhanded way. They expect you to make an effort, too. Tired, tattered jeans and sweats day after day isn't going to get their heart thumping any faster. Your lover is very visual and needs to be attracted to what he or she sees on you as well as what is in you.
Leo is a master of seduction, yet Aries likes to lead, so you may have to hand your lover the controls now and then. Don't worry -- this is one "war" in which you'll gladly surrender to your captor!
In bed is where you see how this tryst will lead to commitment. Love is hot, sweet, tender, and all-around terrific! You both have an awesome sense of passion, and sizzle up enough energy to blast a rocket to the moon. The Lion or Lioness is a proud cat, so never, never stray, dear Ram, or there will be hell to pay. Like you, Leo wants to win and be your one-and-only; being chosen second best would never be enough.
Are either of you practical? No, but you're highly productive, so hopefully you'll both generate enough cash to keep the wolf from the door. This is a partnership of two bosses, for both of you like to take charge. This is why you generate such strong electrical currents! There will always be dynamic tension present between you.
Leo is a fixed sign, so you may bemoan their stubbornness at times. As the slightly more flexible of the two, you may have to bend to achieve closure. You know this is never easy for you. When the Lion and the Ram fight, they have screaming matches, with the Lion's roar intended to intimidate the Ram into submission. Better not to allow things to get out of hand. Suggest instead, in the sexiest, most erotic way, that you make up. Once hurt, the Lion's pride is hard to nurse back to health, so always let your lover save face if you want this union to survive.
You are made for one another and understand each other's needs, so don't let this sensual feline get away!
Do check out the site!
Cheers,
Grillers - a must try food outlet.
Its been 6 days since i visited the doctor and for the first time in my life I actually finished my course of antibiotics but yet I'm STILL not fully well yet. I'm taking Vit C as well. haiz.. think my immune system is real weak. gotta do something about it..
On Mon, met Zeenath sis and Fathima together with bee for break fast.. and as usual waited real long for fathima.. but cant quite blame her also la.. shes so busy in NIE that its hard to see her much these days.. trying time for her i guess.. am just looking forward to her wedding and engagement. heh.. we were supposed to go to bugis, but since we were late, we settled for tiong bahru and ate at GRillers!
The food at Grillers is great! Much better and more value for money than swensons.. You should all go try it.. and its been made Halal. my smoked chicken spagetti, garlic bread and their country chicken, chicken cutlet etc was all good.. yummmm.. i was telling bee we should go there more often.. but sadly he aint the kind who enjoys western much.. oh well, but he always makes e effort to pamper me, thus if i say so, i'm sure he will. heh.
Had a great time catching up with them.. Feel blessed to have wonderful people arnd me.. frens like fathima, 'sister' like zeenath, and a soulmate plus (some) great family members.. life is good. alhamdulila! (sometimes) .. oh and fathima was relating the paruthiveeran climax to us - gross and sad. do catch it when u get the time.
Its already the 14th day of fasting! time really flies.. and thats good. doesnt quite feel like the festive mood one bit. haiz. tis raya wil be sad, with all the memories and the feeling of absense and emptiness. dun even wanna think about it.
Today started off a lil bad.. Bee's facing loadsa stress at work and theres lil i can do or say to make things better for him. I guess jobs in the audit or accounts line jus aint easy like wat farida akka always says.. clients in any field are always a headache.. but i guess its all the worse in their line.. hmm. i really hope work's gonna get more manageable for him soon. but the thing is, even when hes stressed, he tries to put on a cheerful front when he talks to me on the phone.. but somehow, i can usually see through it. Inshah allah, just pray all gets better soon..
Some good news might be coming up end of this year, inshah allah.. if all goes well, am looking forward to it. =) I received a smile from some guy located in bahrain in friendster with a short msg 'nice eyes!'. haha. tat was nice of e fella.. just a genuine compliment.. he didnt try to add me or anything - my profile is private.
better get back to work now. heh..
till i blog again..
cheers,
On Mon, met Zeenath sis and Fathima together with bee for break fast.. and as usual waited real long for fathima.. but cant quite blame her also la.. shes so busy in NIE that its hard to see her much these days.. trying time for her i guess.. am just looking forward to her wedding and engagement. heh.. we were supposed to go to bugis, but since we were late, we settled for tiong bahru and ate at GRillers!
The food at Grillers is great! Much better and more value for money than swensons.. You should all go try it.. and its been made Halal. my smoked chicken spagetti, garlic bread and their country chicken, chicken cutlet etc was all good.. yummmm.. i was telling bee we should go there more often.. but sadly he aint the kind who enjoys western much.. oh well, but he always makes e effort to pamper me, thus if i say so, i'm sure he will. heh.
Had a great time catching up with them.. Feel blessed to have wonderful people arnd me.. frens like fathima, 'sister' like zeenath, and a soulmate plus (some) great family members.. life is good. alhamdulila! (sometimes) .. oh and fathima was relating the paruthiveeran climax to us - gross and sad. do catch it when u get the time.
Its already the 14th day of fasting! time really flies.. and thats good. doesnt quite feel like the festive mood one bit. haiz. tis raya wil be sad, with all the memories and the feeling of absense and emptiness. dun even wanna think about it.
Today started off a lil bad.. Bee's facing loadsa stress at work and theres lil i can do or say to make things better for him. I guess jobs in the audit or accounts line jus aint easy like wat farida akka always says.. clients in any field are always a headache.. but i guess its all the worse in their line.. hmm. i really hope work's gonna get more manageable for him soon. but the thing is, even when hes stressed, he tries to put on a cheerful front when he talks to me on the phone.. but somehow, i can usually see through it. Inshah allah, just pray all gets better soon..
Some good news might be coming up end of this year, inshah allah.. if all goes well, am looking forward to it. =) I received a smile from some guy located in bahrain in friendster with a short msg 'nice eyes!'. haha. tat was nice of e fella.. just a genuine compliment.. he didnt try to add me or anything - my profile is private.
better get back to work now. heh..
till i blog again..
cheers,
Monday, September 24, 2007
Children these days..
On thurs, after breaking fast outside, I was queuing up at Prima Deli to get a waffle when i caught a glimpse of an example how much face children these days are given and the extent to which they are pampered by their parents.
There was this chubby young girl, probably about 5-7 years old at most in the shop with her dad while her mum was in the queue to order the waffle. She was saying something to her dad, to which he started to respond, and she, not agreeing with what he was saying just hit him on the chest and went 'shut up! ur stupid'. I was for a moment stunned and thought my ears registered otherwise, but she repeated it again.
The father casually looked around at the moment and his eyes caught mine. And what i think i saw in his eyes was a slightly embarassed look at what his daughter had just said. But what do you think he said or did to her? NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING. Boy, was i amazed at his patience. Shortly after, this girl (who as i mentioned earlier is already chubby), pointed to a rather pudgy couple (and i mean really pointed directly at) and went 'so fat!'. argggh. Whats becoming of the younger generation?
I cannot imagine coming out of the place in one piece if I was the gal in the picture about 15 years ago. Though i was a relatively pampered kid who got much of what i wanted, i could NEVER have got away with that. I mean, its just plain, utter disrespect. I felt sad for the parents, at the same time, i feel they deserved it. The parents should have taken actions to recitfy the problem, not jus keep mum about it.
Which brings me a worrying thought, how is my child going to turn out in the near future? I believe in providing the best for my child, all that i did not get when i was younger. But at the same time, i believe respect and good manners are absolutely essential for the upbringing on a child. I would of cos pamper him/her, but at the same time, i would definitely nt be tolerant of such bahavoir.
And now, why are children so ill mannered these days? Cos at most times parents are working and have lil time for children. Children grow up with maids or grandparents who do nt have the heart to tell them off. No doubt, a child who grows with grandparents will be taught several essential values but sometimes they jus pamper him/her way too much. Worse is it for children who grow up in maid's care. Children learn from the way that parents behave towards the domestic helpers and they know that their maids do not have to be 'respected'?
In the fast paced world we live in today, it is absolutely essential for both parents to work to get by with the rising cost of living. But parents really should spend time with children. Material possessions and toys aint gonna give your child the kind of happiness and behavioral attributes that are deemed acceptable in any society.
and now, how much worse can things get? i wonder...
There was this chubby young girl, probably about 5-7 years old at most in the shop with her dad while her mum was in the queue to order the waffle. She was saying something to her dad, to which he started to respond, and she, not agreeing with what he was saying just hit him on the chest and went 'shut up! ur stupid'. I was for a moment stunned and thought my ears registered otherwise, but she repeated it again.
The father casually looked around at the moment and his eyes caught mine. And what i think i saw in his eyes was a slightly embarassed look at what his daughter had just said. But what do you think he said or did to her? NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING. Boy, was i amazed at his patience. Shortly after, this girl (who as i mentioned earlier is already chubby), pointed to a rather pudgy couple (and i mean really pointed directly at) and went 'so fat!'. argggh. Whats becoming of the younger generation?
I cannot imagine coming out of the place in one piece if I was the gal in the picture about 15 years ago. Though i was a relatively pampered kid who got much of what i wanted, i could NEVER have got away with that. I mean, its just plain, utter disrespect. I felt sad for the parents, at the same time, i feel they deserved it. The parents should have taken actions to recitfy the problem, not jus keep mum about it.
Which brings me a worrying thought, how is my child going to turn out in the near future? I believe in providing the best for my child, all that i did not get when i was younger. But at the same time, i believe respect and good manners are absolutely essential for the upbringing on a child. I would of cos pamper him/her, but at the same time, i would definitely nt be tolerant of such bahavoir.
And now, why are children so ill mannered these days? Cos at most times parents are working and have lil time for children. Children grow up with maids or grandparents who do nt have the heart to tell them off. No doubt, a child who grows with grandparents will be taught several essential values but sometimes they jus pamper him/her way too much. Worse is it for children who grow up in maid's care. Children learn from the way that parents behave towards the domestic helpers and they know that their maids do not have to be 'respected'?
In the fast paced world we live in today, it is absolutely essential for both parents to work to get by with the rising cost of living. But parents really should spend time with children. Material possessions and toys aint gonna give your child the kind of happiness and behavioral attributes that are deemed acceptable in any society.
and now, how much worse can things get? i wonder...
Losing my voice..
Have not blogged for a couple of days, thus have alot of things on my mind to get off.. Been sick on Fri, went to the doc and she told me that my immune system is weak.. Duh, i jus got the flu on 2nd Sept and I was back at her clinic again on 21st. haiz. fortunately i can claim my medical expenses from my company. heh.
She gave me quite some medication and prescribed some Vit C tabs to take.. She also told me to make some lifestyle changes with regards to my constant lower back pain - wear less heels - the first being. Now this is a hard one, or maybe, its good. cos i have another reason to shop!. hehe. but honestly, haven recently been the mood to shop.. thinking more about saving money for the future. lol. i'm surprised at myself. ;)
Before i go into my blog proper, just a quote that i would like you guys to ponder.
'When a door of happiness closes, another opens. but often we spend so much time crying and fretting over the door that closed that we dun realise the one that has opened for us.'
This is in one way or other linked to the quote, When God takes you to it, HE will take you through it.
I am glad that when HE took my loved one from me, HE placed someone there to see me through all the hard times, HE put that one person there who could serve as my pillar of strength, as my confidante. This person has never failed to put a smile on my face even during my worst times and i am so glad that hes a part of my life. love ya bee. =)
Though no one person can replace the role of a mother in the life of a girl, bee and bro sure help me stay strong and cheerful. alhamdulila.
Will continue the blog in the next string.. better get back to work for now.. ciaoz..
cheers,
She gave me quite some medication and prescribed some Vit C tabs to take.. She also told me to make some lifestyle changes with regards to my constant lower back pain - wear less heels - the first being. Now this is a hard one, or maybe, its good. cos i have another reason to shop!. hehe. but honestly, haven recently been the mood to shop.. thinking more about saving money for the future. lol. i'm surprised at myself. ;)
Before i go into my blog proper, just a quote that i would like you guys to ponder.
'When a door of happiness closes, another opens. but often we spend so much time crying and fretting over the door that closed that we dun realise the one that has opened for us.'
This is in one way or other linked to the quote, When God takes you to it, HE will take you through it.
I am glad that when HE took my loved one from me, HE placed someone there to see me through all the hard times, HE put that one person there who could serve as my pillar of strength, as my confidante. This person has never failed to put a smile on my face even during my worst times and i am so glad that hes a part of my life. love ya bee. =)
Though no one person can replace the role of a mother in the life of a girl, bee and bro sure help me stay strong and cheerful. alhamdulila.
Will continue the blog in the next string.. better get back to work for now.. ciaoz..
cheers,
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Random thoughts..
Didn't really have a good start to the morning today.. haizz.. I was super sleepy when i awoke for sahur today and it was a struggle keeping awake to finish my prayers and alas i didnt reheat the food from yday break fast time, and it all spoilt. it was half a pot of chicken curry and just like that its all gone to waste.
i felt damn bad, nt really cos of the unhappiness its gonna cause chachi, but more cos she would have to cook again though shes fasting, unwell AND working the night shift.. gotta try and do someting to rectify, probably buy dinner back for all and ask her nt to cook..
Its thurs today, the week has really flown by.. tomorrow is friday and before u know it the weekends gone and a new week starts.. it jus seems like a vicious never-ending cycle.. On my way to work today, i jus kept asking myself 'What if I had done it'. That brought to my mind a whole series of qns that we at some point in time always ask ouselves. The what ifs and if onlys
What if I had done this instead of that
What if I had chosen this ovr that
If only I had nt been so silly
If only I had made the move
If only I had studied harder
If only I had thought about tis before
etc etc etc
Looking bad, life is full of mishaps.. Sometimes things never turn out the way you would want them to.. Thats when regret seeps into your heart and sometimes it haunts you. I always pride myself on never having any regrets in my life, cos whats done is done, nothings gonna change it..
But recently, I have this burning IF ONLY question in my heart that tends to hurt. But being the person tat I am, i always push it to the back of my head and tell myself that whats done is done and nothing can change it. A life lost is a life lost, nothings gonna change anything. Sitting down and weeping or worrying aint gonna solve my problems..
Sure its easier said that done.. I have spent days on end moody and upset and breaking down.. and the only person who knows about this is bee and HIM. Months have gone by and something I have realised during tis time is that people change. And the only way you can solve problems or enlighten yourself will be through your prayers..
This may sound cliche to many, but believing that 'If god takes you to it, HE will take u through it' sure helps in making one feel better. And slowly, you grow to realise that actually everything happens for a reason, and usually this is good.
Recently Rasheed and my bro had a misunderstanding. Initially the results of it seemed to be rather upsetting (considering hw my bro is nt a very tactful person, he says whats on his mind w/o thinking of hw ppl may take it. yes, it runs in the family haha) but later however i realised that it was all for good. Overall, after tat incident, I realise i'm sinning alot less. and thats very good. it gives me peace of mind.
Alhamdulila, bee and i now give more importance to prayers and we can visibly see the changes (positive of cos) in both emotional and physical state. problems dun seem so big anymore and tempers flare alot less.
Okay, I know this entry is full of random thoughts and it doesnt really flow.. but end of the day i just wanna highlight two things..
1. Treasure your loved ones and tell them how much you love them EVERYDAY cos tomorrow may never come.
2. Life is too short to be full of regrets. Dont keep looking back at the past and going IF ONLY or WHAT IF. move on.
and most importantly, place ur utmost trust in HIM.
one who believes in HIM will never fail.
have a pleasant day ahead guys.. i certainly hope my day turns out better soon. =)
cheers,
i felt damn bad, nt really cos of the unhappiness its gonna cause chachi, but more cos she would have to cook again though shes fasting, unwell AND working the night shift.. gotta try and do someting to rectify, probably buy dinner back for all and ask her nt to cook..
Its thurs today, the week has really flown by.. tomorrow is friday and before u know it the weekends gone and a new week starts.. it jus seems like a vicious never-ending cycle.. On my way to work today, i jus kept asking myself 'What if I had done it'. That brought to my mind a whole series of qns that we at some point in time always ask ouselves. The what ifs and if onlys
What if I had done this instead of that
What if I had chosen this ovr that
If only I had nt been so silly
If only I had made the move
If only I had studied harder
If only I had thought about tis before
etc etc etc
Looking bad, life is full of mishaps.. Sometimes things never turn out the way you would want them to.. Thats when regret seeps into your heart and sometimes it haunts you. I always pride myself on never having any regrets in my life, cos whats done is done, nothings gonna change it..
But recently, I have this burning IF ONLY question in my heart that tends to hurt. But being the person tat I am, i always push it to the back of my head and tell myself that whats done is done and nothing can change it. A life lost is a life lost, nothings gonna change anything. Sitting down and weeping or worrying aint gonna solve my problems..
Sure its easier said that done.. I have spent days on end moody and upset and breaking down.. and the only person who knows about this is bee and HIM. Months have gone by and something I have realised during tis time is that people change. And the only way you can solve problems or enlighten yourself will be through your prayers..
This may sound cliche to many, but believing that 'If god takes you to it, HE will take u through it' sure helps in making one feel better. And slowly, you grow to realise that actually everything happens for a reason, and usually this is good.
Recently Rasheed and my bro had a misunderstanding. Initially the results of it seemed to be rather upsetting (considering hw my bro is nt a very tactful person, he says whats on his mind w/o thinking of hw ppl may take it. yes, it runs in the family haha) but later however i realised that it was all for good. Overall, after tat incident, I realise i'm sinning alot less. and thats very good. it gives me peace of mind.
Alhamdulila, bee and i now give more importance to prayers and we can visibly see the changes (positive of cos) in both emotional and physical state. problems dun seem so big anymore and tempers flare alot less.
Okay, I know this entry is full of random thoughts and it doesnt really flow.. but end of the day i just wanna highlight two things..
1. Treasure your loved ones and tell them how much you love them EVERYDAY cos tomorrow may never come.
2. Life is too short to be full of regrets. Dont keep looking back at the past and going IF ONLY or WHAT IF. move on.
and most importantly, place ur utmost trust in HIM.
one who believes in HIM will never fail.
have a pleasant day ahead guys.. i certainly hope my day turns out better soon. =)
cheers,
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Finally blogging..
Always had the intention to blog but was just way too lazy to start it..
And i realise that I really need to do some writing in order to keep my vocabulary skills intact. haha - besides work of cos. ;)
Anyway, just to update you guys on the status of things on my side..
Alright guys, I am doing well now, with the grace of god. The demise of my loved one did leave me stricken, but oh well, life goes on and i'm just glad shes been relieved of her suffering.
And yes, I am STILL in my prev company - the place that I interned.. Its been about 20 months, and I am waiting to leave but hey the benefits here are pretty awesome that sometimes I cant help but think twice about this.
I mean, where else are you allowed to come in 15-30 mins late, take long lunches, have wonderful colleagues, a huge table all to urself, early leave for the fasting month, bonus every Jan and a guaranteed increment every yr? hmm life sure sounds good here.. but honestly, sometimes i ponder if thats all one needs to get from a job.
Job satisfaction is something that is essential for one to feel good at the end of a long working day or week. I feel myself pondering every once in a while
Am I making full use of my potential?
When I went back to poly for a Graduates Advisory Committee meeting, Ms Loh and Ms Peters, my two very fav lecturers back at SP were very happy for me. Ms Loh in particular encouraged me to stay in Huntington for 2-3 years atleast as it will provide me with very relevant experience.
Sure, I have learnt alot here. I started as an intern, progressed to a PR Asst and am nw a PR Exec. Got my first promo in 8 months. And i know in abt 3 months, when I finish my degree, I'll be made an associate. What else could I ask for right? It all seems perfect, until one of those low periods hit you and then you start wondering, am I doing the right thing.
But oh well, i'll just have to go with the flow and trust in HIM to show me the right directions.
On a happier note, bro is back to work as a medic. Cant help but feel happy for him cos I know this job gives him satisfcation at the end of the day. And i sure hope things go back to normal soon. I will now have more time for my small talks with him and i will finally be able to see him daily! yay. =) And yes iffa and bro are back together and i am SOO happy about it. Elated is the word. Inshah Allah, i pray they will always last and live happily ever after... The way I pray and believe Rasheed and I will. Did i say I soo missed iffa?.
And theres a whole list of other ppl i miss..
Rashi
Banu
Fawaz (my baby nephew)
My nieces Shamila and Shamina
Irsath
and my beeeee...
the days are just flying by and everyone is soo busy these days. wonder where its all gonna lead to. am meeting the mates later for break fast.. the guys r flying off on Fri and of all times Kel is sick now.. hope he recovers soon. i'm gonna miss our weekend outings boy.
till i blog again,
happy ramadan to all ma fellow muslim mates.
cheers,
And i realise that I really need to do some writing in order to keep my vocabulary skills intact. haha - besides work of cos. ;)
Anyway, just to update you guys on the status of things on my side..
Alright guys, I am doing well now, with the grace of god. The demise of my loved one did leave me stricken, but oh well, life goes on and i'm just glad shes been relieved of her suffering.
And yes, I am STILL in my prev company - the place that I interned.. Its been about 20 months, and I am waiting to leave but hey the benefits here are pretty awesome that sometimes I cant help but think twice about this.
I mean, where else are you allowed to come in 15-30 mins late, take long lunches, have wonderful colleagues, a huge table all to urself, early leave for the fasting month, bonus every Jan and a guaranteed increment every yr? hmm life sure sounds good here.. but honestly, sometimes i ponder if thats all one needs to get from a job.
Job satisfaction is something that is essential for one to feel good at the end of a long working day or week. I feel myself pondering every once in a while
Am I making full use of my potential?
OR
Am i staying on just because I fear change?When I went back to poly for a Graduates Advisory Committee meeting, Ms Loh and Ms Peters, my two very fav lecturers back at SP were very happy for me. Ms Loh in particular encouraged me to stay in Huntington for 2-3 years atleast as it will provide me with very relevant experience.
Sure, I have learnt alot here. I started as an intern, progressed to a PR Asst and am nw a PR Exec. Got my first promo in 8 months. And i know in abt 3 months, when I finish my degree, I'll be made an associate. What else could I ask for right? It all seems perfect, until one of those low periods hit you and then you start wondering, am I doing the right thing.
But oh well, i'll just have to go with the flow and trust in HIM to show me the right directions.
On a happier note, bro is back to work as a medic. Cant help but feel happy for him cos I know this job gives him satisfcation at the end of the day. And i sure hope things go back to normal soon. I will now have more time for my small talks with him and i will finally be able to see him daily! yay. =) And yes iffa and bro are back together and i am SOO happy about it. Elated is the word. Inshah Allah, i pray they will always last and live happily ever after... The way I pray and believe Rasheed and I will. Did i say I soo missed iffa?.
And theres a whole list of other ppl i miss..
Rashi
Banu
Fawaz (my baby nephew)
My nieces Shamila and Shamina
Irsath
and my beeeee...
the days are just flying by and everyone is soo busy these days. wonder where its all gonna lead to. am meeting the mates later for break fast.. the guys r flying off on Fri and of all times Kel is sick now.. hope he recovers soon. i'm gonna miss our weekend outings boy.
till i blog again,
happy ramadan to all ma fellow muslim mates.
cheers,
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